Wow I didn't think I would ever write about about Miley Cyrus. But guess what I am doing right now? That's right, you guessed it! So today, apparently there was a "blog" that Miley wrote on her facebook. While it seemed legit, Miley is now saying it's not true. I wish it were true, because quite frankly it was a pretty touching blog, and it just seemed so much like Miley. I have no clue why, but it made me feel..happy? inspired? I don't know it's just leaving quite the effect on me, regardless of if Miley wrote it or not. I went to tweet her then realized she doesn't have her twitter anymore, and for some reason I got sad. I'm thinking about seeing her in concert. Anyway that blog, just made me realize a few things...
...now onto some other things. I am no saint, I have done somethings that I'm not proud of. Just because I am a person of God and love God does not mean I am perfect. I do fail him, I will be the first to admit that. But he loves me regardless, and forgives me. I'm in the process of learning and growing. There is just a happiness, a feeling of joy and feeling whole when I am in the presence of the Lord. And you know what I haven't be in church in months. But I still worship on my own and I feel closer when I do it on my own than when I'm at church. I love church, but sometimes people at my church don't practice what they preach if you know what I'm saying. It annoys me, and in turn makes me not want to go, and I would rather go to Christ's Temple. But I can't turn my back on my church you know? I grew up there...
Everyday is truly a blessing to be alive. I try to remember that constantly, it helps when I get out of line that I can pull myself back into reality to think that I'm alive today and some people didn't wake up today, that I ate today and some people haven't eaten for days. That I have a roof over my head that keeps me safe, and some people are sleeping on cardboard. Sometimes I forget these things and get wrapped up in the material objects, but thank goodness God whispers to me and brings me back. I never want to get big-headed, or treat people like I'm better than them or don't have time for them. I just want to love and give love. Help those who need it and share my story and my blessings. God is good, ok. If you don't realize that then I'm sorry for you. I don't understand how he could be fake if we can feel him, see him and talk to him. Makes no sense to me. But I'm not here trying to find those answers. Cause I already know mine, and I know he walks with me.
I was saving this idea for Christmas gifts, but I may push it up to thanksgiving. Not sure yet.
My time will come, one day. I know it, and I'll be able to do everything I have dreamt of. Whatever God has planned for me, I'm ready. It's scary not knowing, but I know he won't lead me wrong. I trust in him.
xoxo
- Jynnea
Monday, October 12, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
We can't change the past
I have learnt this is so many ways. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things that happened. But I can't, and I've learnt no matter how long keep thinking about it and trying to fix it, it's not going to do anything.
I am ever evolving, into what I hope is a better and stronger person. I want to be a better person, be in control of myself and not give in and listen to things I shouldn't. I know I have said somethings on Disney Secrets in the past but that's how I felt about the person in the past, that doesn't mean I feel that way about them now.
I just have the strongest need and urge that I felt in my heart like just now to say God is Good. Well I know this is true for real. I do apologize to anyone I have spoken bad about. Now if it were in justice then I don't think I owe you one, but I guess you can take it.
I was watching Joyce Meyer last night ( iloveher ) she has the best sermons I swear! She was talking about something that rang so true. Who are you behind closed doors, but more importantly how is your heart behind closed doors. Because we can all put on an act for the world, but we are alone it's when we are beginning true. Now I know I've done somethings that I'm not proud of when I'm alone, only because I could get away with it because I was "alone" but in reality, I'm never alone. God is always there, he knows my every move. The only person I was fooling was myself. No one else. I think this is something to really think about and something I am going to work on. I think I'm going to listen to Josh Groban more often, I am loving his music. It's making me happy :]
Anyway back to Joyce a little bit before I go. She was saying how people try to become a Christan and they think suddenly all of there problems will go away like that. That's not always the case my friends. God has been so good to me! So great. I know I am truly blessed. I'm not using him for a one time thing and then just saying ooh I got what I need -- no. I could never get enough of God. I need him to survive. I will be his forever and ever and ever no matter what. I know he will never give me more than I can handle and even if I feel like something is too much. I can look back on it and see how I grew stronger from it.
My heart is feeling kind of heavy atm. I will ttyl :] Wisdom teeth are coming out Friday, I used to be really scared. But I'm better now, I know God will take care of me.
- Jynnea
I am ever evolving, into what I hope is a better and stronger person. I want to be a better person, be in control of myself and not give in and listen to things I shouldn't. I know I have said somethings on Disney Secrets in the past but that's how I felt about the person in the past, that doesn't mean I feel that way about them now.
I just have the strongest need and urge that I felt in my heart like just now to say God is Good. Well I know this is true for real. I do apologize to anyone I have spoken bad about. Now if it were in justice then I don't think I owe you one, but I guess you can take it.
I was watching Joyce Meyer last night ( iloveher ) she has the best sermons I swear! She was talking about something that rang so true. Who are you behind closed doors, but more importantly how is your heart behind closed doors. Because we can all put on an act for the world, but we are alone it's when we are beginning true. Now I know I've done somethings that I'm not proud of when I'm alone, only because I could get away with it because I was "alone" but in reality, I'm never alone. God is always there, he knows my every move. The only person I was fooling was myself. No one else. I think this is something to really think about and something I am going to work on. I think I'm going to listen to Josh Groban more often, I am loving his music. It's making me happy :]
Anyway back to Joyce a little bit before I go. She was saying how people try to become a Christan and they think suddenly all of there problems will go away like that. That's not always the case my friends. God has been so good to me! So great. I know I am truly blessed. I'm not using him for a one time thing and then just saying ooh I got what I need -- no. I could never get enough of God. I need him to survive. I will be his forever and ever and ever no matter what. I know he will never give me more than I can handle and even if I feel like something is too much. I can look back on it and see how I grew stronger from it.
My heart is feeling kind of heavy atm. I will ttyl :] Wisdom teeth are coming out Friday, I used to be really scared. But I'm better now, I know God will take care of me.
- Jynnea
Friday, September 25, 2009
Every cloud has a silver lining.
I was going to write my blog tomorrow. But I really got a strong urge to write it right now. There are a few things I want to talk about. I know I talk about Christa all the time, but she really has had a huge impact on me. I know I type like she does sometimes with the whole caps deal. But it really does make the word seem a bit more eager.
So Christa posted a blog the other day called Black Monday. Well I had my own Black Monday the other day. As Christa made me realize that I have to power to turn a negative into a positive. I don't really want to go into detail. But someone had upset me so much, and they have quite a lot in the past and it's a group of them, I was so mad I was on the verge of tears. I vowed that when I become famous I wouldn't talk to them, help them, whatever. I mean I was sooo mad! I had decided that this was it, I was done! But then I thought to myself, after about 10 minutes I have control of this, me getting upset isn't even affecting them, in fact it's probably one of the reasons they do this stuff. I decided I'm going to live my dreams and forget about everything they have done to hurt me and others. It won't matter, they can't take my happiness. Later on that night I got to talking to my cousin, and finally we got to making plans and now I will be heading to the studio soon to work out something and a demo.
See God is good, he honestly is. Today at dance my dance teacher who has knee problems said. I'm not going to need surgery, God will heal me. It made me so happy. To see how much faith she has and how much she trusts God to take care of her, it's so awesome. She one of the people who I can say is an example of a good Christian person. I believe God opens doors for us, when it seems like it's all crashing down. I felt like that the other day, but in the end he opened this door for me. I know he has a plan for me, I just have to work on my part of the deal.
I hadn't read my bible in a few days and I started to miss that warmth and closeness to God. That comfort he gives me, because I do find in comfort in him. I know my life is better because he is in it. He's words comfort me.
I'm just gonna throw this out there, but I think for some reason I will be moving soon, maybe to Los Angeles? I'm not sure but I'm getting a pretty strong feeling about something! I'll let you know. Oh yeah, I'm thinking about sending something in for this new Disney Pilot :] Hopefully!
Talk to you soon! Don't give up on whatever it is you want, you can have it :]
God Bless. xoxoxxoxox Jynnea!
So Christa posted a blog the other day called Black Monday. Well I had my own Black Monday the other day. As Christa made me realize that I have to power to turn a negative into a positive. I don't really want to go into detail. But someone had upset me so much, and they have quite a lot in the past and it's a group of them, I was so mad I was on the verge of tears. I vowed that when I become famous I wouldn't talk to them, help them, whatever. I mean I was sooo mad! I had decided that this was it, I was done! But then I thought to myself, after about 10 minutes I have control of this, me getting upset isn't even affecting them, in fact it's probably one of the reasons they do this stuff. I decided I'm going to live my dreams and forget about everything they have done to hurt me and others. It won't matter, they can't take my happiness. Later on that night I got to talking to my cousin, and finally we got to making plans and now I will be heading to the studio soon to work out something and a demo.
See God is good, he honestly is. Today at dance my dance teacher who has knee problems said. I'm not going to need surgery, God will heal me. It made me so happy. To see how much faith she has and how much she trusts God to take care of her, it's so awesome. She one of the people who I can say is an example of a good Christian person. I believe God opens doors for us, when it seems like it's all crashing down. I felt like that the other day, but in the end he opened this door for me. I know he has a plan for me, I just have to work on my part of the deal.
I hadn't read my bible in a few days and I started to miss that warmth and closeness to God. That comfort he gives me, because I do find in comfort in him. I know my life is better because he is in it. He's words comfort me.
I'm just gonna throw this out there, but I think for some reason I will be moving soon, maybe to Los Angeles? I'm not sure but I'm getting a pretty strong feeling about something! I'll let you know. Oh yeah, I'm thinking about sending something in for this new Disney Pilot :] Hopefully!
Talk to you soon! Don't give up on whatever it is you want, you can have it :]
God Bless. xoxoxxoxox Jynnea!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Love Happens
Love Happens was really good, very touching, and emotional. I would recommend seeing it, I had to fight back the tears. It made me think a lot about somethings. Of course everything makes me think a lot so...lol! But it made me think about what are my fears, why aren't I facing them and how can I face them and move on.
I'm not quite sure, but it's definitely something to think about for sure. I am going to start living my life fuller, so I can get it to my fullest! I am blessed to be here, and I don't forget that at all. We are all blessed, no matter if we had a bad day, you're alive. Pick yourself back up, ask God for help, and become stronger. We can do it. Think about people who don't have our chances, and try to think about what you have instead of what you don't. That's something I'm working on myself. Much Love! xoxo - Jynnea
I'm not quite sure, but it's definitely something to think about for sure. I am going to start living my life fuller, so I can get it to my fullest! I am blessed to be here, and I don't forget that at all. We are all blessed, no matter if we had a bad day, you're alive. Pick yourself back up, ask God for help, and become stronger. We can do it. Think about people who don't have our chances, and try to think about what you have instead of what you don't. That's something I'm working on myself. Much Love! xoxo - Jynnea
Monday, September 14, 2009
Cleaning out my closet...
Hmm...I have decided that I am going to clean out my closet and get start to get rid of the junk I don't need. It will be a few months process probably will end at the end of November. I know that's a long time, but I need all of that time to really decide if I need whatever it is, or if I should really get rid of it for good. It may be things, emotions, people. I don't know, I'm just going to giving myself a life makeover tweeting things along the way.
On to whatever else, I just got Battlefield today. Jordin's album is AUHMAZING! She's sooo good! I wish I could have seen her :/ I'm trying to see if there are any shows left that I can go to.
Just want to point out that people change all the time, I change my mind all the time. Like people on and off. And that's that. If people can't handle that then, well it's your problem not mine. I'm bi-poplar with my feelings about people. Like Miley, I used to reallllllllllllly not like her, but now I love her even thought she gets on my nerves sometimes. I can like who I want. Everyone doesn't like the same person, and that's just life. So don't say I didn't tell you.
I guess that's all I wanted to say on that.
Yeah that was a douche move Kayne pulled, but Taylor has also pulled some douche moves. Both have been in the wrong, and it was very rude for Kayne to do that, things happen for a reason in life. I'm sure it hurt her an she was upset, and yeah it wasn't all that fair. I'm sorry it happened to her, but what happened, happened. I think krama might have had a tiny hand in it. I'm not saying she deserved it either, but at lest now she knows a bit what it's like to be treated not so nicely in public, and maybe now she will learn from her actions, and see how they might hurt people. Perhaps, the meaning as to why this took place. That's what life is for living and learning. By no means I am perfect, yeah I have talked about people before, I'm not proud of it. That's why I now try to think through what I say before I say it, so I don't end up regreting what I say. Sometimes it works, other times it doesn't. We live and we learn...
- Jynnea
On to whatever else, I just got Battlefield today. Jordin's album is AUHMAZING! She's sooo good! I wish I could have seen her :/ I'm trying to see if there are any shows left that I can go to.
Just want to point out that people change all the time, I change my mind all the time. Like people on and off. And that's that. If people can't handle that then, well it's your problem not mine. I'm bi-poplar with my feelings about people. Like Miley, I used to reallllllllllllly not like her, but now I love her even thought she gets on my nerves sometimes. I can like who I want. Everyone doesn't like the same person, and that's just life. So don't say I didn't tell you.
I guess that's all I wanted to say on that.
Yeah that was a douche move Kayne pulled, but Taylor has also pulled some douche moves. Both have been in the wrong, and it was very rude for Kayne to do that, things happen for a reason in life. I'm sure it hurt her an she was upset, and yeah it wasn't all that fair. I'm sorry it happened to her, but what happened, happened. I think krama might have had a tiny hand in it. I'm not saying she deserved it either, but at lest now she knows a bit what it's like to be treated not so nicely in public, and maybe now she will learn from her actions, and see how they might hurt people. Perhaps, the meaning as to why this took place. That's what life is for living and learning. By no means I am perfect, yeah I have talked about people before, I'm not proud of it. That's why I now try to think through what I say before I say it, so I don't end up regreting what I say. Sometimes it works, other times it doesn't. We live and we learn...
- Jynnea
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Hebrew 6:19 & Matthew 5:14
Wow, I have a feeling that I am going to be writing a lot. So many things I want to pour out and a few updates. I don't know where to begin?
Hmm, let's begin with the bible verses. I really love Hebrew 6:19 I discover it a few days ago when I was searching my bible and looking under the "hope" section. The verse is " We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain," I have been thinking and pondering on this for a while. I feel like for me, it is very true. I do have this undescribable hope in my heart, in God. It feels like an anchor that is deep in my soul, getting deeper and deeper. I love it, it brings me peace, it brings me joy, it brings me calm, it brings me joy. Sure you can say you have hope in nothing, based on nothing, you fool. Well then if I'm a fool, I'm a fool for life. I will never stop loving God, because I know. I KNOW that he is real. He was with me in one of my darkest hours and pulled me out when I needed him most, and that is enough right there for me to believe for enternity. In my past blog I said I can't wait to start hearing God. Well I have been hearing him all along, just not recognizing it's him. He is with me always, he helps me through my day. I talk to him all the time, there are sometimes when I have to call upon him and say Lord give me the strength to stay calm! You know how your nerves be getting worked sometimes, you just need that extra help.
The second verse is actually Nick Jonas's favorite bible verse. "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden..." I love this one because it's basically saying that we are unstoppable, that no matter how hard people or things try to bring us down they can't, because we are an unstoppable light, we are the light of the world. It also gives me hope, and helps me realize that I need to set an example for people no matter how old or young, or if they know me or not. I just wanted to touch on those two things. I have been pondering them a lot lately.
On to business, a.k.a my acting I guess you would call it career? Lol. Like I said I'm feeling this hope, I feel like things are picking up, and I feel like God has a lot in store for me. I'm pretty sure he may have mentioned that things are going to start coming my way and this was only a few weeks ago. But he told my mom like back in June, but I was still being kind of hard-headed. I've known and always knew, I guess I was kind of afraid to let myself embrace it or something? Not really sure, I'll have to get back to you on that one. Anyway, on Saturday I'm going to a casting for extras and I believe small roles? Then next Thursday I'm going to an As The World Turns casting, and also sending in my Camp Rock 2 dance audition. I am praying that one ( or all ) of these come through. If it doesn't happen, I just keep on pressing on. God will give allow me to have, what he has planned for me. My time will come.
Lastly, Christa Black I have almost read all of her blogs and wow I wish I had read them before! She has touched me in so many ways with her stories, it's almost like she just wrote some of my life and how I was feeling. It's nice to see how she has overcome that, of course with God. He healed her, and she is so right. I feel like a broken record sometimes but I just don't understand.
God can heal you, he can help you, he can make you better. You turn to worldly things for help, and they help temporarily and then what? You are lost, hurt, depressed and confused again. You need to run to God, I mean SPRINT to him, he is waiting for you. You can only deny yourself so long, and break yourself down so long. You need him, you believe in him, but you let something break you down and drive you away and keep you away. You were tricked and you were fooled, you need to see the light. I know you will one day, and I pray everyday for that.
One last thing I wanted to touch on that I learned from Christa ( I love her! ) about shame. God doesn't want us to feel ashamed, he doesn't make us feel ashamed, if you feel you are not clean enough or whatever for God it's untrue. I let go of feeling ashamed over stuff that wasn't even shameful and it felt weird, but it felt really nice. It felt right. So don't beat yourself up. Let go and let God. Wooh I wrote a lot! And a lot about God. I love him so, he just moving through me and I couldn't stop. I don't want to stop. Ever.
Much Love! - Jynnea
Hmm, let's begin with the bible verses. I really love Hebrew 6:19 I discover it a few days ago when I was searching my bible and looking under the "hope" section. The verse is " We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain," I have been thinking and pondering on this for a while. I feel like for me, it is very true. I do have this undescribable hope in my heart, in God. It feels like an anchor that is deep in my soul, getting deeper and deeper. I love it, it brings me peace, it brings me joy, it brings me calm, it brings me joy. Sure you can say you have hope in nothing, based on nothing, you fool. Well then if I'm a fool, I'm a fool for life. I will never stop loving God, because I know. I KNOW that he is real. He was with me in one of my darkest hours and pulled me out when I needed him most, and that is enough right there for me to believe for enternity. In my past blog I said I can't wait to start hearing God. Well I have been hearing him all along, just not recognizing it's him. He is with me always, he helps me through my day. I talk to him all the time, there are sometimes when I have to call upon him and say Lord give me the strength to stay calm! You know how your nerves be getting worked sometimes, you just need that extra help.
The second verse is actually Nick Jonas's favorite bible verse. "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden..." I love this one because it's basically saying that we are unstoppable, that no matter how hard people or things try to bring us down they can't, because we are an unstoppable light, we are the light of the world. It also gives me hope, and helps me realize that I need to set an example for people no matter how old or young, or if they know me or not. I just wanted to touch on those two things. I have been pondering them a lot lately.
On to business, a.k.a my acting I guess you would call it career? Lol. Like I said I'm feeling this hope, I feel like things are picking up, and I feel like God has a lot in store for me. I'm pretty sure he may have mentioned that things are going to start coming my way and this was only a few weeks ago. But he told my mom like back in June, but I was still being kind of hard-headed. I've known and always knew, I guess I was kind of afraid to let myself embrace it or something? Not really sure, I'll have to get back to you on that one. Anyway, on Saturday I'm going to a casting for extras and I believe small roles? Then next Thursday I'm going to an As The World Turns casting, and also sending in my Camp Rock 2 dance audition. I am praying that one ( or all ) of these come through. If it doesn't happen, I just keep on pressing on. God will give allow me to have, what he has planned for me. My time will come.
Lastly, Christa Black I have almost read all of her blogs and wow I wish I had read them before! She has touched me in so many ways with her stories, it's almost like she just wrote some of my life and how I was feeling. It's nice to see how she has overcome that, of course with God. He healed her, and she is so right. I feel like a broken record sometimes but I just don't understand.
God can heal you, he can help you, he can make you better. You turn to worldly things for help, and they help temporarily and then what? You are lost, hurt, depressed and confused again. You need to run to God, I mean SPRINT to him, he is waiting for you. You can only deny yourself so long, and break yourself down so long. You need him, you believe in him, but you let something break you down and drive you away and keep you away. You were tricked and you were fooled, you need to see the light. I know you will one day, and I pray everyday for that.
One last thing I wanted to touch on that I learned from Christa ( I love her! ) about shame. God doesn't want us to feel ashamed, he doesn't make us feel ashamed, if you feel you are not clean enough or whatever for God it's untrue. I let go of feeling ashamed over stuff that wasn't even shameful and it felt weird, but it felt really nice. It felt right. So don't beat yourself up. Let go and let God. Wooh I wrote a lot! And a lot about God. I love him so, he just moving through me and I couldn't stop. I don't want to stop. Ever.
Much Love! - Jynnea
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Music's in my soul.
I can hear it everyday, everynight it's the one thing on my mind! So my friend Megan and I have decided that we are going to be a duo! A singing duo. I'm excited, we are having a business meeting tomorrow. To talk about how to go forward with this. I love to sing! So if I can get into the buz by singing and then get back to acting, I'm all for it. I'm really excited :] I just wanted to say that. Ttyl! God is good, God is love. Peace - Jynnea.
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