We can't change the past

I have learnt this is so many ways. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things that happened. But I can't, and I've learnt no matter how long keep thinking about it and trying to fix it, it's not going to do anything.

I am ever evolving, into what I hope is a better and stronger person. I want to be a better person, be in control of myself and not give in and listen to things I shouldn't. I know I have said somethings on Disney Secrets in the past but that's how I felt about the person in the past, that doesn't mean I feel that way about them now.

I just have the strongest need and urge that I felt in my heart like just now to say God is Good. Well I know this is true for real. I do apologize to anyone I have spoken bad about. Now if it were in justice then I don't think I owe you one, but I guess you can take it.

I was watching Joyce Meyer last night ( iloveher ) she has the best sermons I swear! She was talking about something that rang so true. Who are you behind closed doors, but more importantly how is your heart behind closed doors. Because we can all put on an act for the world, but we are alone it's when we are beginning true. Now I know I've done somethings that I'm not proud of when I'm alone, only because I could get away with it because I was "alone" but in reality, I'm never alone. God is always there, he knows my every move. The only person I was fooling was myself. No one else. I think this is something to really think about and something I am going to work on. I think I'm going to listen to Josh Groban more often, I am loving his music. It's making me happy :]


Anyway back to Joyce a little bit before I go. She was saying how people try to become a Christan and they think suddenly all of there problems will go away like that. That's not always the case my friends. God has been so good to me! So great. I know I am truly blessed. I'm not using him for a one time thing and then just saying ooh I got what I need -- no. I could never get enough of God. I need him to survive. I will be his forever and ever and ever no matter what. I know he will never give me more than I can handle and even if I feel like something is too much. I can look back on it and see how I grew stronger from it.

My heart is feeling kind of heavy atm. I will ttyl :] Wisdom teeth are coming out Friday, I used to be really scared. But I'm better now, I know God will take care of me.

- Jynnea