Shout it out, I can't hold back no more,I let it out.

Ok, right now I am a bit mixed with my emotions. I'm happy, but I'm frustrated, I can't really blame anyone else though. I kind of set myself up for failure, but that's what happens when you wear your heart on your sleeve. I never thought I did, but now that I think about it I do, for the most part...

I don't know I was so convinced! IT just bothers me, and this is a true problem. If you knew the whole problem you would understand why this is really something so dumb, and pathetic...uhhh I don't know...but I'm not giving up because something deep inside is telling me not to, it's just a setback to throw me off. But I have to be strong and move forward not just with this, but everything in life. I must say I am full of hope, so I'm not going to think what if, but if, or it probably won't. I am just going to keep going and doing what I can, trusting God. I know he has more for me than I can even think of...

That's all I feel like saying right now! ttyl! God Bless. xoxo. Going to watch some Joyce Meyer! lovelovelove her! :)

Much Love. - Jynnea.

But you don't know what you've got till it's gone.

2010 is the year of NO FEAR. I plan on it being that way. Not just because Nick said it, but it's true, no fear is the best thing. New year, new beginnings. I don't want to be afraid anymore, so long I have dreamt about so many things, and yes the unknown is scary but, so is life, and I don't want to live in fear.

So Nashville was so great, we didn't really get to walk around. It was so cold! Nick was amazing, sadly I didn't get to meet him, the way things worked out I think I know why. It's hard to explain, but to sum it up. I talked to God about it, and well let's just say I have somethings to work on. So anyway we get there, I forgot that Nashville is a different time zone! So I gained an hour and got to take my shower and wash my hair! haha which I really wanted to wash my hair. We got to the Ryman at about 6:40ish and went in I really like it there, how the seats are the original pews. Pretty much every seat is a good seat in there, the balcony is the best if your not within the first few rows on the floor. Diane Burch was really good, amazing soulful voice. When Nick came out it was crazy! The screams were intense! For some reason I don't scream anymore when -- in this case Nick -- they came out, I just stand up, smile and clap. I cheer for them and stuff during the show. But I feel comfortable whenever I see them that I don't have to go crazy. Nick did such a great job, he was a natural! He owned the stage, his music is real. He is so talented. I forgot about Kevin and Joe the whole time pretty much and even forgot about 'Jonas Brothers' Nick is going places, God blessed him for sure with so much talent! I am so glad he and his brothers get to share it with us. So anyway after the concert I guess Nick left straight for D.C. -- I didn't know that so we walked to his hotel and walked around lost for like 35 mins in the cold. Finally we went to the Courtyard Marriott and asked for help, we were pretty close and I think we had already walked past the hotel once before! haha when we got there some other Team Jonas ppl were there waiting, I had just missed Mr.Jonas! Dang, haha. So we waited till 2am and I gave up cause we were so tired! Went back to our hotel ate some noodles and then we were gone. haha One of the best concerts ever. I had so much fun, I was enjoying myself. Christa Black was there, Jordan Pruitt, and of course Maya!

It was a great way to start the New Year! God is so good! So so good to me. I am blessed, my family is blessed and we are grateful! I really hope Jonas Brothers go on tour this summer! How fun would it be to go to a bunch of shows?! Um crazy fun right! Ha, but we'll see. I dont' know the future, I trust God with whatever has wants me to do. 2010 is the year of No Fear! No dream is to big or small.

God Bless! xoxox -- Jynnea.

Goodbye 09, Bonjour 2010.

Well first of I have to say on this New Years Eve, it has been an amazing year! A very blessed year. A lot of ups and downs yes, but a lot of learning and growing as well. I just know that through everything God helps me through and he always will. I am so grateful for everything he does and blesses me and my family with. I've been thinking a lot and 2010 just seems like something different and not the same as the others. I feel a lot of hope and have a lot of dreams. I've been thinking about how to improve myself for 2010. What can I do to further myself in 2010. I don't want to be in the same place that I am today, I want to learn more, grow more, and progress. So I was thinking I tend to over dream sometimes, and I have to reel myself back into reality. One thing I realised I don't know the future only God knows mine, and two I can plan, but I never really know. I hope to do many things this in the new year. I may not live in New York or Los Angeles but that doesn't mean I can't train and try my best here and prepare here for when I do move. So I would like to focus more on my talents and stuff this year start dancing again, take guitar lessons, find a good acting class, and take more vocal lessons. Training is never ending. Wow I can't believe another year has gone by, it's just like wow. God is good, truly. I know no matter what I can always lean on him and trust in him and I just know. So yeah I am going to pray tonight going into the new year! I pray for you and yours to be blessed! Much Love. xoxox

-- Jynnea

Gives Me Hope.

Wow, it's been a while. So lets start off with what's been going on with me. Basically just working. I wanted to talk about a few things today. 1) Well as some of you know I've had some family issues for a long time. It's sad when you can't trust family, and really I was never even close to them so it's kind of hard to miss that I never had or knew ya know? Anyway, we had a big blow up, and it was just crazyness. You can't tell someone something if they don't want to hear it, to them they will also be right. I pray for them all the time that they will see the truth, but it's hard to see the truth when your mind and thoughts are clouded with recreational things. I can't say that I'm all upset, actually I have felt "done" with the whole situation for a long time, it's sad when things end this way. I trust that God will help us through this problem so I have decided that I'm not going to waste anymore time on thinking about it.

Next, Gives Me Hope is such a beautiful website, it makes me a bit teary-eyed it's great to see how much love people actually have. If only people weren't afraid to reach out and touch someone and help them, we can help each other no matter what religion we are or what we believe, we can still love each other.

Lastly, you know I have to talk about God in my blogs and preach a little bit for you. lol So this morning, I was having a little talk / pray with God and I was talking about my favorite bible verses, and I had this like revelation. I mean it was just like WOAH. I was saying how Proverbs 3: 5 -6 is pretty much my favorite verse. You know what it is? " Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not on your own understanding ; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" See why this is such a big deal to me, is because so many times when speaking with God I've been like"wah wah wah Lord, I just don't understand!" Ha, well a light bulb finally went off in my head! Um HELLO!?! is anyone else getting this, I can't believe it took me sooo long. I was trying to lean on my own understandings...I wasn't trusting in the Lord. I was too busy trying to to figure it out for myself and understand myself. I know that whatever it is God will let me know. I do trust God, and I know he will make my paths straight. I don't have to waste time anymore trying to rack my brain figuring out why something happened. I knew I had to write a blog about this. So yeah that's my huge break through. Basically all I wanted to say.

I am so excited for Nicholas's solo project! He's a great artist. God has blessed him with amazing talent and a beautiful soul.

That's all for now, ttyl! God Bless. xoxo.

- Jynnea

Miley.

Wow I didn't think I would ever write about about Miley Cyrus. But guess what I am doing right now? That's right, you guessed it! So today, apparently there was a "blog" that Miley wrote on her facebook. While it seemed legit, Miley is now saying it's not true. I wish it were true, because quite frankly it was a pretty touching blog, and it just seemed so much like Miley. I have no clue why, but it made me feel..happy? inspired? I don't know it's just leaving quite the effect on me, regardless of if Miley wrote it or not. I went to tweet her then realized she doesn't have her twitter anymore, and for some reason I got sad. I'm thinking about seeing her in concert. Anyway that blog, just made me realize a few things...

...now onto some other things. I am no saint, I have done somethings that I'm not proud of. Just because I am a person of God and love God does not mean I am perfect. I do fail him, I will be the first to admit that. But he loves me regardless, and forgives me. I'm in the process of learning and growing. There is just a happiness, a feeling of joy and feeling whole when I am in the presence of the Lord. And you know what I haven't be in church in months. But I still worship on my own and I feel closer when I do it on my own than when I'm at church. I love church, but sometimes people at my church don't practice what they preach if you know what I'm saying. It annoys me, and in turn makes me not want to go, and I would rather go to Christ's Temple. But I can't turn my back on my church you know? I grew up there...

Everyday is truly a blessing to be alive. I try to remember that constantly, it helps when I get out of line that I can pull myself back into reality to think that I'm alive today and some people didn't wake up today, that I ate today and some people haven't eaten for days. That I have a roof over my head that keeps me safe, and some people are sleeping on cardboard. Sometimes I forget these things and get wrapped up in the material objects, but thank goodness God whispers to me and brings me back. I never want to get big-headed, or treat people like I'm better than them or don't have time for them. I just want to love and give love. Help those who need it and share my story and my blessings. God is good, ok. If you don't realize that then I'm sorry for you. I don't understand how he could be fake if we can feel him, see him and talk to him. Makes no sense to me. But I'm not here trying to find those answers. Cause I already know mine, and I know he walks with me.

I was saving this idea for Christmas gifts, but I may push it up to thanksgiving. Not sure yet.

My time will come, one day. I know it, and I'll be able to do everything I have dreamt of. Whatever God has planned for me, I'm ready. It's scary not knowing, but I know he won't lead me wrong. I trust in him.

xoxo

- Jynnea

We can't change the past

I have learnt this is so many ways. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things that happened. But I can't, and I've learnt no matter how long keep thinking about it and trying to fix it, it's not going to do anything.

I am ever evolving, into what I hope is a better and stronger person. I want to be a better person, be in control of myself and not give in and listen to things I shouldn't. I know I have said somethings on Disney Secrets in the past but that's how I felt about the person in the past, that doesn't mean I feel that way about them now.

I just have the strongest need and urge that I felt in my heart like just now to say God is Good. Well I know this is true for real. I do apologize to anyone I have spoken bad about. Now if it were in justice then I don't think I owe you one, but I guess you can take it.

I was watching Joyce Meyer last night ( iloveher ) she has the best sermons I swear! She was talking about something that rang so true. Who are you behind closed doors, but more importantly how is your heart behind closed doors. Because we can all put on an act for the world, but we are alone it's when we are beginning true. Now I know I've done somethings that I'm not proud of when I'm alone, only because I could get away with it because I was "alone" but in reality, I'm never alone. God is always there, he knows my every move. The only person I was fooling was myself. No one else. I think this is something to really think about and something I am going to work on. I think I'm going to listen to Josh Groban more often, I am loving his music. It's making me happy :]


Anyway back to Joyce a little bit before I go. She was saying how people try to become a Christan and they think suddenly all of there problems will go away like that. That's not always the case my friends. God has been so good to me! So great. I know I am truly blessed. I'm not using him for a one time thing and then just saying ooh I got what I need -- no. I could never get enough of God. I need him to survive. I will be his forever and ever and ever no matter what. I know he will never give me more than I can handle and even if I feel like something is too much. I can look back on it and see how I grew stronger from it.

My heart is feeling kind of heavy atm. I will ttyl :] Wisdom teeth are coming out Friday, I used to be really scared. But I'm better now, I know God will take care of me.

- Jynnea

Every cloud has a silver lining.

I was going to write my blog tomorrow. But I really got a strong urge to write it right now. There are a few things I want to talk about. I know I talk about Christa all the time, but she really has had a huge impact on me. I know I type like she does sometimes with the whole caps deal. But it really does make the word seem a bit more eager.

So Christa posted a blog the other day called Black Monday. Well I had my own Black Monday the other day. As Christa made me realize that I have to power to turn a negative into a positive. I don't really want to go into detail. But someone had upset me so much, and they have quite a lot in the past and it's a group of them, I was so mad I was on the verge of tears. I vowed that when I become famous I wouldn't talk to them, help them, whatever. I mean I was sooo mad! I had decided that this was it, I was done! But then I thought to myself, after about 10 minutes I have control of this, me getting upset isn't even affecting them, in fact it's probably one of the reasons they do this stuff. I decided I'm going to live my dreams and forget about everything they have done to hurt me and others. It won't matter, they can't take my happiness. Later on that night I got to talking to my cousin, and finally we got to making plans and now I will be heading to the studio soon to work out something and a demo.

See God is good, he honestly is. Today at dance my dance teacher who has knee problems said. I'm not going to need surgery, God will heal me. It made me so happy. To see how much faith she has and how much she trusts God to take care of her, it's so awesome. She one of the people who I can say is an example of a good Christian person. I believe God opens doors for us, when it seems like it's all crashing down. I felt like that the other day, but in the end he opened this door for me. I know he has a plan for me, I just have to work on my part of the deal.

I hadn't read my bible in a few days and I started to miss that warmth and closeness to God. That comfort he gives me, because I do find in comfort in him. I know my life is better because he is in it. He's words comfort me.

I'm just gonna throw this out there, but I think for some reason I will be moving soon, maybe to Los Angeles? I'm not sure but I'm getting a pretty strong feeling about something! I'll let you know. Oh yeah, I'm thinking about sending something in for this new Disney Pilot :] Hopefully!

Talk to you soon! Don't give up on whatever it is you want, you can have it :]

God Bless. xoxoxxoxox Jynnea!