Love Happens was really good, very touching, and emotional. I would recommend seeing it, I had to fight back the tears. It made me think a lot about somethings. Of course everything makes me think a lot so...lol! But it made me think about what are my fears, why aren't I facing them and how can I face them and move on.
I'm not quite sure, but it's definitely something to think about for sure. I am going to start living my life fuller, so I can get it to my fullest! I am blessed to be here, and I don't forget that at all. We are all blessed, no matter if we had a bad day, you're alive. Pick yourself back up, ask God for help, and become stronger. We can do it. Think about people who don't have our chances, and try to think about what you have instead of what you don't. That's something I'm working on myself. Much Love! xoxo - Jynnea
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Cleaning out my closet...
Hmm...I have decided that I am going to clean out my closet and get start to get rid of the junk I don't need. It will be a few months process probably will end at the end of November. I know that's a long time, but I need all of that time to really decide if I need whatever it is, or if I should really get rid of it for good. It may be things, emotions, people. I don't know, I'm just going to giving myself a life makeover tweeting things along the way.
On to whatever else, I just got Battlefield today. Jordin's album is AUHMAZING! She's sooo good! I wish I could have seen her :/ I'm trying to see if there are any shows left that I can go to.
Just want to point out that people change all the time, I change my mind all the time. Like people on and off. And that's that. If people can't handle that then, well it's your problem not mine. I'm bi-poplar with my feelings about people. Like Miley, I used to reallllllllllllly not like her, but now I love her even thought she gets on my nerves sometimes. I can like who I want. Everyone doesn't like the same person, and that's just life. So don't say I didn't tell you.
I guess that's all I wanted to say on that.
Yeah that was a douche move Kayne pulled, but Taylor has also pulled some douche moves. Both have been in the wrong, and it was very rude for Kayne to do that, things happen for a reason in life. I'm sure it hurt her an she was upset, and yeah it wasn't all that fair. I'm sorry it happened to her, but what happened, happened. I think krama might have had a tiny hand in it. I'm not saying she deserved it either, but at lest now she knows a bit what it's like to be treated not so nicely in public, and maybe now she will learn from her actions, and see how they might hurt people. Perhaps, the meaning as to why this took place. That's what life is for living and learning. By no means I am perfect, yeah I have talked about people before, I'm not proud of it. That's why I now try to think through what I say before I say it, so I don't end up regreting what I say. Sometimes it works, other times it doesn't. We live and we learn...
- Jynnea
On to whatever else, I just got Battlefield today. Jordin's album is AUHMAZING! She's sooo good! I wish I could have seen her :/ I'm trying to see if there are any shows left that I can go to.
Just want to point out that people change all the time, I change my mind all the time. Like people on and off. And that's that. If people can't handle that then, well it's your problem not mine. I'm bi-poplar with my feelings about people. Like Miley, I used to reallllllllllllly not like her, but now I love her even thought she gets on my nerves sometimes. I can like who I want. Everyone doesn't like the same person, and that's just life. So don't say I didn't tell you.
I guess that's all I wanted to say on that.
Yeah that was a douche move Kayne pulled, but Taylor has also pulled some douche moves. Both have been in the wrong, and it was very rude for Kayne to do that, things happen for a reason in life. I'm sure it hurt her an she was upset, and yeah it wasn't all that fair. I'm sorry it happened to her, but what happened, happened. I think krama might have had a tiny hand in it. I'm not saying she deserved it either, but at lest now she knows a bit what it's like to be treated not so nicely in public, and maybe now she will learn from her actions, and see how they might hurt people. Perhaps, the meaning as to why this took place. That's what life is for living and learning. By no means I am perfect, yeah I have talked about people before, I'm not proud of it. That's why I now try to think through what I say before I say it, so I don't end up regreting what I say. Sometimes it works, other times it doesn't. We live and we learn...
- Jynnea
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Hebrew 6:19 & Matthew 5:14
Wow, I have a feeling that I am going to be writing a lot. So many things I want to pour out and a few updates. I don't know where to begin?
Hmm, let's begin with the bible verses. I really love Hebrew 6:19 I discover it a few days ago when I was searching my bible and looking under the "hope" section. The verse is " We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain," I have been thinking and pondering on this for a while. I feel like for me, it is very true. I do have this undescribable hope in my heart, in God. It feels like an anchor that is deep in my soul, getting deeper and deeper. I love it, it brings me peace, it brings me joy, it brings me calm, it brings me joy. Sure you can say you have hope in nothing, based on nothing, you fool. Well then if I'm a fool, I'm a fool for life. I will never stop loving God, because I know. I KNOW that he is real. He was with me in one of my darkest hours and pulled me out when I needed him most, and that is enough right there for me to believe for enternity. In my past blog I said I can't wait to start hearing God. Well I have been hearing him all along, just not recognizing it's him. He is with me always, he helps me through my day. I talk to him all the time, there are sometimes when I have to call upon him and say Lord give me the strength to stay calm! You know how your nerves be getting worked sometimes, you just need that extra help.
The second verse is actually Nick Jonas's favorite bible verse. "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden..." I love this one because it's basically saying that we are unstoppable, that no matter how hard people or things try to bring us down they can't, because we are an unstoppable light, we are the light of the world. It also gives me hope, and helps me realize that I need to set an example for people no matter how old or young, or if they know me or not. I just wanted to touch on those two things. I have been pondering them a lot lately.
On to business, a.k.a my acting I guess you would call it career? Lol. Like I said I'm feeling this hope, I feel like things are picking up, and I feel like God has a lot in store for me. I'm pretty sure he may have mentioned that things are going to start coming my way and this was only a few weeks ago. But he told my mom like back in June, but I was still being kind of hard-headed. I've known and always knew, I guess I was kind of afraid to let myself embrace it or something? Not really sure, I'll have to get back to you on that one. Anyway, on Saturday I'm going to a casting for extras and I believe small roles? Then next Thursday I'm going to an As The World Turns casting, and also sending in my Camp Rock 2 dance audition. I am praying that one ( or all ) of these come through. If it doesn't happen, I just keep on pressing on. God will give allow me to have, what he has planned for me. My time will come.
Lastly, Christa Black I have almost read all of her blogs and wow I wish I had read them before! She has touched me in so many ways with her stories, it's almost like she just wrote some of my life and how I was feeling. It's nice to see how she has overcome that, of course with God. He healed her, and she is so right. I feel like a broken record sometimes but I just don't understand.
God can heal you, he can help you, he can make you better. You turn to worldly things for help, and they help temporarily and then what? You are lost, hurt, depressed and confused again. You need to run to God, I mean SPRINT to him, he is waiting for you. You can only deny yourself so long, and break yourself down so long. You need him, you believe in him, but you let something break you down and drive you away and keep you away. You were tricked and you were fooled, you need to see the light. I know you will one day, and I pray everyday for that.
One last thing I wanted to touch on that I learned from Christa ( I love her! ) about shame. God doesn't want us to feel ashamed, he doesn't make us feel ashamed, if you feel you are not clean enough or whatever for God it's untrue. I let go of feeling ashamed over stuff that wasn't even shameful and it felt weird, but it felt really nice. It felt right. So don't beat yourself up. Let go and let God. Wooh I wrote a lot! And a lot about God. I love him so, he just moving through me and I couldn't stop. I don't want to stop. Ever.
Much Love! - Jynnea
Hmm, let's begin with the bible verses. I really love Hebrew 6:19 I discover it a few days ago when I was searching my bible and looking under the "hope" section. The verse is " We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain," I have been thinking and pondering on this for a while. I feel like for me, it is very true. I do have this undescribable hope in my heart, in God. It feels like an anchor that is deep in my soul, getting deeper and deeper. I love it, it brings me peace, it brings me joy, it brings me calm, it brings me joy. Sure you can say you have hope in nothing, based on nothing, you fool. Well then if I'm a fool, I'm a fool for life. I will never stop loving God, because I know. I KNOW that he is real. He was with me in one of my darkest hours and pulled me out when I needed him most, and that is enough right there for me to believe for enternity. In my past blog I said I can't wait to start hearing God. Well I have been hearing him all along, just not recognizing it's him. He is with me always, he helps me through my day. I talk to him all the time, there are sometimes when I have to call upon him and say Lord give me the strength to stay calm! You know how your nerves be getting worked sometimes, you just need that extra help.
The second verse is actually Nick Jonas's favorite bible verse. "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden..." I love this one because it's basically saying that we are unstoppable, that no matter how hard people or things try to bring us down they can't, because we are an unstoppable light, we are the light of the world. It also gives me hope, and helps me realize that I need to set an example for people no matter how old or young, or if they know me or not. I just wanted to touch on those two things. I have been pondering them a lot lately.
On to business, a.k.a my acting I guess you would call it career? Lol. Like I said I'm feeling this hope, I feel like things are picking up, and I feel like God has a lot in store for me. I'm pretty sure he may have mentioned that things are going to start coming my way and this was only a few weeks ago. But he told my mom like back in June, but I was still being kind of hard-headed. I've known and always knew, I guess I was kind of afraid to let myself embrace it or something? Not really sure, I'll have to get back to you on that one. Anyway, on Saturday I'm going to a casting for extras and I believe small roles? Then next Thursday I'm going to an As The World Turns casting, and also sending in my Camp Rock 2 dance audition. I am praying that one ( or all ) of these come through. If it doesn't happen, I just keep on pressing on. God will give allow me to have, what he has planned for me. My time will come.
Lastly, Christa Black I have almost read all of her blogs and wow I wish I had read them before! She has touched me in so many ways with her stories, it's almost like she just wrote some of my life and how I was feeling. It's nice to see how she has overcome that, of course with God. He healed her, and she is so right. I feel like a broken record sometimes but I just don't understand.
God can heal you, he can help you, he can make you better. You turn to worldly things for help, and they help temporarily and then what? You are lost, hurt, depressed and confused again. You need to run to God, I mean SPRINT to him, he is waiting for you. You can only deny yourself so long, and break yourself down so long. You need him, you believe in him, but you let something break you down and drive you away and keep you away. You were tricked and you were fooled, you need to see the light. I know you will one day, and I pray everyday for that.
One last thing I wanted to touch on that I learned from Christa ( I love her! ) about shame. God doesn't want us to feel ashamed, he doesn't make us feel ashamed, if you feel you are not clean enough or whatever for God it's untrue. I let go of feeling ashamed over stuff that wasn't even shameful and it felt weird, but it felt really nice. It felt right. So don't beat yourself up. Let go and let God. Wooh I wrote a lot! And a lot about God. I love him so, he just moving through me and I couldn't stop. I don't want to stop. Ever.
Much Love! - Jynnea
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Music's in my soul.
I can hear it everyday, everynight it's the one thing on my mind! So my friend Megan and I have decided that we are going to be a duo! A singing duo. I'm excited, we are having a business meeting tomorrow. To talk about how to go forward with this. I love to sing! So if I can get into the buz by singing and then get back to acting, I'm all for it. I'm really excited :] I just wanted to say that. Ttyl! God is good, God is love. Peace - Jynnea.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Then sings my soul.
You know, I've been thinking? I used to be scared or careful of what I would say around people because I wanted to please them. I thought I had to censor myself whenever it came to speaking of God. Why? Why should I have to censor myself because others don't believe? I'm fine with everyone believing in what they want. I just so happen to believe in God with all of my heart and soul, sometimes it hurts in a good way, because that love is so strong.
It's so strong that I want to tell the whole world of how much joy and happiness I have now. I'm not going to force anyone to believe in God or make them read the bible. We all have a choice. If someone has a question, I'll be more than happy to help. But I am no longer going to stop myself, because I love God and that's that. Thanks to Christa, its like all of my blinders are being lifted so I can see the truth and the light. I love it. I feel like a new person, a right person. Complete change doesn't happen over night, but I can tell a difference in myself from two weeks ago and today.
I have been craving God, wanting to listen to music that praises him and read my bible. I am finally allowing God to wrap me up in his love, and it's quite beautiful. I have learned that I can turn a negative situation and turn it into a positive. I can't wait to start hearing God, I know I do now, but listening, and seeing him. I'm just so happy and excited writing this is a pretty pathetic attempt at explaining. I can't tell you how much my heart is overflowing with joy right now. I know I sound crazy, but oh well crazy it is. It makes me happy, God makes me happy.
Christa Black is so beautiful and inspirational. I am going to print all of her blogs one day so I can go back and read them when I need hope. Her blog is
Christablack.blogspot.com
That's all for now. God Bless. - Jynnea
It's so strong that I want to tell the whole world of how much joy and happiness I have now. I'm not going to force anyone to believe in God or make them read the bible. We all have a choice. If someone has a question, I'll be more than happy to help. But I am no longer going to stop myself, because I love God and that's that. Thanks to Christa, its like all of my blinders are being lifted so I can see the truth and the light. I love it. I feel like a new person, a right person. Complete change doesn't happen over night, but I can tell a difference in myself from two weeks ago and today.
I have been craving God, wanting to listen to music that praises him and read my bible. I am finally allowing God to wrap me up in his love, and it's quite beautiful. I have learned that I can turn a negative situation and turn it into a positive. I can't wait to start hearing God, I know I do now, but listening, and seeing him. I'm just so happy and excited writing this is a pretty pathetic attempt at explaining. I can't tell you how much my heart is overflowing with joy right now. I know I sound crazy, but oh well crazy it is. It makes me happy, God makes me happy.
Christa Black is so beautiful and inspirational. I am going to print all of her blogs one day so I can go back and read them when I need hope. Her blog is
Christablack.blogspot.com
That's all for now. God Bless. - Jynnea
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Make you feel my love.
I love this song! It's so pretty, Adele has an amazing soulful beautiful voice. But that's not the reason I decided to write. I'm writing because I miss the Jonas Brothers. Yes, I know it's pretty sad. But seeing them leave kind of hurts, it's like these 3 people who have helped me hold on, and know in a little bit longer I'll be fine are there for a moment and then gone like the wind, because well...they are. I don't like that, what I would give to be friends with them. Now I sound pathetic, but it's really how I feel. So, I don't care. One day I will meet them, one day! Maybe we'll be friends or we will do a project together or maybe my dreams will come true! I'm using a lot of " ! " I guess it's because I'm just trying to get the point across and I'm just so happy, thankful and blessed to see them in concert. " Always Be My Baby" just came on, I love this song too. *sigh* Anyway, Nick's speech during ALBL maybe me cry in Lexington, but it really really hit home in Columbus, I didn't cry, but his words were extra special that night. That night on August 26th 2009, I made a promise to Nick Jonas, of course he didn't hear me, but he told us to promise him, and I did. That we would never let whatever it is slow us down. Since then I have never felt such hope in myself and my dreams. I truly feel like this time I got the words, they impacted me. I'm not going to let this get me down because I can live my dreams no matter what condition I have. I hope to look back on these old post a year from now, and be in a different and better place, maybe even making a name for myself. Who knows what the future holds except for God. I have faith in him and trust him, to lead me to where he wants me to go. I'm so excited, and I'm filled with so much joy. So thank you God for letting me see my boys. They are one of the best things in my life. xoxo - Jynnea.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Spanish or French?
I always forget about this blog, but it's nice to update and come back and read what I wrote and how I was feeling in that past. So, my job is going good so far, I like it. I'm thinking about applying for a second job in like September-ish. But we'll see how August and everything goes. I'm about to go to NY again for a seminar with two pretty great agents, I'm excited! I haven't been to NY in forever! So I'm thinking about "college" hmm, I'm not sure if or when I want to go. But I am thinking about doing a 1 year program, maybe. I wasn't sure which language I wanted to study, so I decided that I might as well learn Spanish, it's not my favorite language ( I would rather learn French or Italian first ) But since people think I'm Hispanic...which I'm not. lol I could pass it off for acting and knowing and speaking Spanish will broaden my resume, and help me to communicate with the world. After I learn Spanish, I am going to learn Arabic, then French, then Italian, then German, and hopefully Greek. That's a lot of languages to learn, and hopefully I'll get to test my knowledge of what I've learnt in the actual country! Since I plan to go to either Europe or Egypt/ Jordan/ Israel next summer, the languages will come in handy. If I choose Egypt, then Arabic will def come in handy. That's all for now, I'm really tired, work in the AM.
xx love - Jynnea
xx love - Jynnea
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