Here's the thing...

I'm not perfect, nor will I ever be perfect. My life is changing, I am changing. I'm still learning, I'm still growing. Sometimes I get lost in the confusion. But there is something I do want to say. I think being in the industry, you know going in that there is a chance that you will make it, and you will become famous. So I don't think you should change yourself, but I do think you should think about what you do and how you influence people... I certainly try to think about the things I do and how it will effect me in the long run.

You know, I remember Nick (Jonas) saying he doesn't like when people say "I want to be famous." Well to be honest I do want to be famous. But for me the performing arts is my passion. That's how I feel about it, and I personally want fame, because I want to help people. I want to use my name, status, or "celebrity" to bring things to the attention of people who might not even care about that topic or what not. I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to be famous. If it's for the right reason, luckily for me I have always loved performing and being on stage. Before I had my first commercial audition, I strictly wanted to be a Broadway performer, I didn't really look into film and tv as much. But I love all outlets of the performing arts, so I don't want to limit myself.

I know my blogs are all happy, daises, and sun shine mostly. But everyone has bad days, days when they are just pissed off. I try to bring myself back to reality, before God has to step in, and put me line. I don't ever want it to go that far, but sometimes it does.

I have really been getting on myself lately about being judgemental. I always say I don't judge people, but sometimes it's like it's automatically in my head to "judge" them in some way, not in a bad way.

I want to be a good example for people, because that is hard to come by these days. I know the little kids I used to teach at my dance studio looked up to me. So I think it's possible to be yourself, but if you are about to do something wrong, that would not be an example for people who are looking up to you. Should you even be doing it in the first place? I think that's a good question to ask yourself...

I feel, I feel like. I don't know, this is my chance to start over. I have, I am starting a new chapter. There is something I want so bad right now, I believe in my heart that it is mine. God willing it will happen. I can't even say "if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen." That's how bad I want this. That's how much I believe in me.

All I know is one thing, I will never apologise for loving Christ. For loving God, for my faith. I honestly don't know what I would do if I didn't have my daily prayers/ talks with God. It would be so unnatural to me. But that's just me. I can't make you believe in God, but I can help you anytime you feel like it's your time to have a relationship with him. I have a very unique take on I guess religion. But that's another blog, another time. For now, I'm trusting God.

Whatever you want in life you can have. Ask, Believe, and Receive! I say AMEN to that!

Later! - xoxo.

Jynnea