Yesterday, Japan was struck with a massive earthquake and tsunami. It was so scary to watch the videos and see the photos of what took place. I am praying for all of Japan, and everyone else affected by this. I'm all good if you don't want to follow God, that is your personal choice. But when things like this happen it just takes me back to the book of Matthew ( and others from the bible ). You should check that out, because it is basically what we are going through now.
On a lighter note, great things are coming my way. I am so thankful for these experiences and the chances I get to take. Since I haven't updated in a while I thought I would write a quick blurb.
So that's it, I need to go to sleep. Chat later! Much love. xx God Bless you.
- Jynnea
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Didn't I tell you..
I told you the LORD was taking me on a journey and preparing me. SO much stuff I have learnt and opened my eyes to. Things that I felt in my spirit that I was unsure of, the LORD is helping me to see and understand.
There are many things I need to speak of, but I just do not know where to start. What I will say is that I need to dive into the word of YHWH so I can be ready.
All I know is that I am not longer celebrating "Christmas" if you are wondering why it's easy just search " Should Christians celebrate Christmas" It's like WOW. I kind of knew, but I've never known the true answer. First of all I know people say Jesus is the reason for the season, which is true...but Jesus wasn't even born in December or on Decemeber 25 for that matter. In fact the bible doesn't tell us the exact date of which Yeshua ( Jesus ) was born. "Christmas" is never mentioned in the bible, in fact the early church did not take part in "Christmas". If it were that important to celebrate this, don't you think God would of told us? Also people are like "let's put CHRIST back into "Christmas" umm that's a bit hard to do when he wasn't in it to begin with. It wasn't until the Catholic Church took over and did "Christmas" come into the picture.
Oh I'm just scratching the surface here. There is so much more I need to learn. Another thing that has really been on my mind and really in my spirit was Church...now I don't know how to get about this, so I am just going to type. I was just first of all really weird about it, and why were there so many different denominations. It just didn't set right with me, I used to think to myself, well God gave us the bible, it's pretty clear of what he wants us to do. But why is it that MAN can't seem to follow it? I really I am in the middle of learning.
So as of right now I do not call myself this or that. I am a child of YHWH, I love the LORD and I am all following HIS word, not what MAN is telling me to do. You feel me. I grew up Baptist, but why can't I just be, and just have God's word. Why do we need all these different names and denominations. There shouldn't be "well we don't believe this, so we are going to divide from you and start our own church..." um NO. It's doesn't matter, YHWH's word is his word. End of story. That's how I see it.
I personally feel like the LORD has been calling me, really moving me in my spirit to get ready. He's been revealing things to me, so I know it's not random or out of no where. Also the fact that I am not the only one who feels this, and who feels it in their spirit is proof to me. I don't know when or where. I just know its going to happen, and I need to be ready, we all do. Of course some won't, but if I can help that and try to help these people I will.
Another thing that's really been on my mind of moving, and getting out of here. I don't know why, but I am going to pray about it. Europe has really been on my mind, and not for fun. But for like leaving. America...I just, I don't know. I don't feel like I'm meant to stay here.
Ttys! Be blessed! YHWH bless :)
- Jynnea
There are many things I need to speak of, but I just do not know where to start. What I will say is that I need to dive into the word of YHWH so I can be ready.
All I know is that I am not longer celebrating "Christmas" if you are wondering why it's easy just search " Should Christians celebrate Christmas" It's like WOW. I kind of knew, but I've never known the true answer. First of all I know people say Jesus is the reason for the season, which is true...but Jesus wasn't even born in December or on Decemeber 25 for that matter. In fact the bible doesn't tell us the exact date of which Yeshua ( Jesus ) was born. "Christmas" is never mentioned in the bible, in fact the early church did not take part in "Christmas". If it were that important to celebrate this, don't you think God would of told us? Also people are like "let's put CHRIST back into "Christmas" umm that's a bit hard to do when he wasn't in it to begin with. It wasn't until the Catholic Church took over and did "Christmas" come into the picture.
Oh I'm just scratching the surface here. There is so much more I need to learn. Another thing that has really been on my mind and really in my spirit was Church...now I don't know how to get about this, so I am just going to type. I was just first of all really weird about it, and why were there so many different denominations. It just didn't set right with me, I used to think to myself, well God gave us the bible, it's pretty clear of what he wants us to do. But why is it that MAN can't seem to follow it? I really I am in the middle of learning.
So as of right now I do not call myself this or that. I am a child of YHWH, I love the LORD and I am all following HIS word, not what MAN is telling me to do. You feel me. I grew up Baptist, but why can't I just be, and just have God's word. Why do we need all these different names and denominations. There shouldn't be "well we don't believe this, so we are going to divide from you and start our own church..." um NO. It's doesn't matter, YHWH's word is his word. End of story. That's how I see it.
I personally feel like the LORD has been calling me, really moving me in my spirit to get ready. He's been revealing things to me, so I know it's not random or out of no where. Also the fact that I am not the only one who feels this, and who feels it in their spirit is proof to me. I don't know when or where. I just know its going to happen, and I need to be ready, we all do. Of course some won't, but if I can help that and try to help these people I will.
Another thing that's really been on my mind of moving, and getting out of here. I don't know why, but I am going to pray about it. Europe has really been on my mind, and not for fun. But for like leaving. America...I just, I don't know. I don't feel like I'm meant to stay here.
Ttys! Be blessed! YHWH bless :)
- Jynnea
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Here's the thing...
I'm not perfect, nor will I ever be perfect. My life is changing, I am changing. I'm still learning, I'm still growing. Sometimes I get lost in the confusion. But there is something I do want to say. I think being in the industry, you know going in that there is a chance that you will make it, and you will become famous. So I don't think you should change yourself, but I do think you should think about what you do and how you influence people... I certainly try to think about the things I do and how it will effect me in the long run.
You know, I remember Nick (Jonas) saying he doesn't like when people say "I want to be famous." Well to be honest I do want to be famous. But for me the performing arts is my passion. That's how I feel about it, and I personally want fame, because I want to help people. I want to use my name, status, or "celebrity" to bring things to the attention of people who might not even care about that topic or what not. I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to be famous. If it's for the right reason, luckily for me I have always loved performing and being on stage. Before I had my first commercial audition, I strictly wanted to be a Broadway performer, I didn't really look into film and tv as much. But I love all outlets of the performing arts, so I don't want to limit myself.
I know my blogs are all happy, daises, and sun shine mostly. But everyone has bad days, days when they are just pissed off. I try to bring myself back to reality, before God has to step in, and put me line. I don't ever want it to go that far, but sometimes it does.
I have really been getting on myself lately about being judgemental. I always say I don't judge people, but sometimes it's like it's automatically in my head to "judge" them in some way, not in a bad way.
I want to be a good example for people, because that is hard to come by these days. I know the little kids I used to teach at my dance studio looked up to me. So I think it's possible to be yourself, but if you are about to do something wrong, that would not be an example for people who are looking up to you. Should you even be doing it in the first place? I think that's a good question to ask yourself...
I feel, I feel like. I don't know, this is my chance to start over. I have, I am starting a new chapter. There is something I want so bad right now, I believe in my heart that it is mine. God willing it will happen. I can't even say "if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen." That's how bad I want this. That's how much I believe in me.
All I know is one thing, I will never apologise for loving Christ. For loving God, for my faith. I honestly don't know what I would do if I didn't have my daily prayers/ talks with God. It would be so unnatural to me. But that's just me. I can't make you believe in God, but I can help you anytime you feel like it's your time to have a relationship with him. I have a very unique take on I guess religion. But that's another blog, another time. For now, I'm trusting God.
Whatever you want in life you can have. Ask, Believe, and Receive! I say AMEN to that!
Later! - xoxo.
Jynnea
You know, I remember Nick (Jonas) saying he doesn't like when people say "I want to be famous." Well to be honest I do want to be famous. But for me the performing arts is my passion. That's how I feel about it, and I personally want fame, because I want to help people. I want to use my name, status, or "celebrity" to bring things to the attention of people who might not even care about that topic or what not. I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to be famous. If it's for the right reason, luckily for me I have always loved performing and being on stage. Before I had my first commercial audition, I strictly wanted to be a Broadway performer, I didn't really look into film and tv as much. But I love all outlets of the performing arts, so I don't want to limit myself.
I know my blogs are all happy, daises, and sun shine mostly. But everyone has bad days, days when they are just pissed off. I try to bring myself back to reality, before God has to step in, and put me line. I don't ever want it to go that far, but sometimes it does.
I have really been getting on myself lately about being judgemental. I always say I don't judge people, but sometimes it's like it's automatically in my head to "judge" them in some way, not in a bad way.
I want to be a good example for people, because that is hard to come by these days. I know the little kids I used to teach at my dance studio looked up to me. So I think it's possible to be yourself, but if you are about to do something wrong, that would not be an example for people who are looking up to you. Should you even be doing it in the first place? I think that's a good question to ask yourself...
I feel, I feel like. I don't know, this is my chance to start over. I have, I am starting a new chapter. There is something I want so bad right now, I believe in my heart that it is mine. God willing it will happen. I can't even say "if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen." That's how bad I want this. That's how much I believe in me.
All I know is one thing, I will never apologise for loving Christ. For loving God, for my faith. I honestly don't know what I would do if I didn't have my daily prayers/ talks with God. It would be so unnatural to me. But that's just me. I can't make you believe in God, but I can help you anytime you feel like it's your time to have a relationship with him. I have a very unique take on I guess religion. But that's another blog, another time. For now, I'm trusting God.
Whatever you want in life you can have. Ask, Believe, and Receive! I say AMEN to that!
Later! - xoxo.
Jynnea
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Fearless.
First of all, Happy 4th of July. Please continue to pray for our troops.
Wow, what a whirlwind it has been I don't even know where to start. Well first I can say that I am thankful for the experience I had and for even getting the chance to do something like this. So I thank God for everything he has blessed me with.
So first off, I got invited to audition for the ABC talent showcase. I didn't make it through, but the fact that I even made it through two rounds is awesome to me. I'm proud. The fact that I was even picked out of thousands of people to come audition is a huge accomplishment to me. I'm not disappointed that I didn't make it, it wasn't meant for me or my time. But I got to live in New York for 2ish weeks and that was so fun. Up until the end when drama came in and ruined it, but everything happens for a reason.
One thing I learned while I was in New York, was how to be fearless. I can say for the first time in my life I was fearless. It was amazing, and now I know what that feels like, and I feel like I can do anything. I will talk about the things I was fearless about later on, but for now I guess I will talk about the highlights of my stay.
The first highlight was getting my palm read. Now, I know this is against what I believe. It's hard to explain, without going into a long thing about what I believe about people who see the future I guess.
I shouldn't of done it, and I keep talking to God about it, because I'm not sure how to take it. The lady she was interesting. My friend and I got our palms done, my friend went first, and the lady kind of freaked her out because she was dead right on things. I can't remember everything she said to me so, I'll break it down such as this:
- She said, she sees a long healthy life for me.
- I was put here to give directions, not take them.
- I have a problem with authority. ( trueeee!)
- She sees success for me ( she kept repeating this; she even went as far to say she sees fame )
- That I need to move to NY, that is where I will get my break.
- That I'm a strong young women
- About letting go of a situation with these people I like, and starting fresh. Just letting go of them and starting anew. ( Which I did)
- She said in my Aura she saw rainbows and sunshine.
- That I am pure and clean ( truth, I am pure )
- Marriage and 4 kids
- To put my career before love, until I get success.
I got the cards too, but she wouldn't tell me, she just said I won't even tell you what this says because I need to let go of those people, and just start new. Start fresh, you will be a success.
Almost everything she told me, I kind of all ready felt if that makes sense. I guess her words just got me thinking and kind of made me want to kick things into gear. I continue to talk to God about this, because I just don't know how to feel about it.
So later on we went to see Taylor Lautner on the Today Show, mind you I haven't slept but 2 hours at this point. I was getting restless, like WHERE IS TAYLOR!?! I was like I will never come to the Today Show to see anyone again, not even the Jonas Brothers ( which cracks me up, you'll see in a sec ) I just wanted to sleep. Haha. But he was nice and signed as much as he could. Of course I was a fail at life, and forgot to zoom my camera back out, so my photo with him didn't turn out. Lol, it's him and like my hair. Haha but it's ok, I'll meet him again, no big.
Next, my friend won tickets to see a pre-screening of Eclipse. Which was Auhmazing, best one so far! Like Kristen, I actually felt Bella, it seemed so organic the whole movie. So after the movie the drama starts. I won't talk about it, cause it was so ridic. Basically we got kicked out of the place we were staying, that my friend was PAYING rent to live at. Anyways, that's another story.
So, I lost my blood sugar monitor. A friend was kind enough to take me to CVS at like 2 in morning to get another one. lol We had also stopped at the new Forever 21 in Times Square to buy some clean clothes. Mine were scary cause the shirt was shorter than I thought, but I worked it out. Anyways, so we find ourselves with no place to go, and we decided to just go to the Today Show to see Kristen, LOL right. After I said I wouldn't never go back,even for the Jonas Brothers. Clearly, Kristen was more important for some reason. lol It's ok though cause she was nice.
So we are chillin on the sidewalk and talking to some TwiMoms or something like that. Made a sign for Kstew, actually two. lol I'm thinking, I can't believe I am laying out here on the pavement for Kristen Stewart, awake for 48+ hours, no shower, looking skank nasty.
So we go in, get a good spot, and Al's like Kristen is running late because she stopped to get a latte or some ish. I'm thinking, are you serious right now? A Latte? Why didn't her asstistant have one ready for her?! Hellllo? So anyways she gets there, she looks tired as I don't even know. You can here me in my video say, she has bags under her eyes, I meant the bags you get from having little sleep, not because she's pale. lol
So anyways, Kristen and I had some awkward eye contact moment. I'm still not really sure of what happened, after it happened, I was just like huh? Lol, I was seriously that tired, so she comes around to sign stuff and this group of people hog her for like 5 hours, ok not that long but it seemed like it. When she got to us, they were like sorry no pictures guys, and I was like Fml.
So she signs my friends photo or something, and she gets to me. I don't even remember I'm pretty sure I just looked at her and she was like Hey what's up, and I was like err Hi, um yeah I don't have anything for you to sign soooo yeah. It was weird. So she moves to the next person, so then my friend gave me a photo to have her sign, and I run to the other side where she is at and like have my arm floating out with a magazine for her to sign, she looks confused, and looks at me like I hate you. Ok not really, but like huh, and then signs it and she on her way. We try to go to Regis and Kelly to get a photo, but paps are douchelords, and her security person wouldn't let her, which is understandable.
So then we go get the rest of out stuff from the place we are staying at, and move to a hotel. Crash out. Get up the next day to get the final stuff, and it takes longer than we thought, so we miss the Last Airbender red carpet. We meet up with some other friends, and want to get something to eat, but if we leave we will miss the people leaving.
So I stay and the security dude starts talking to me, and we get each others names and make friends. This is one of those moments where I feel I was fearless, it's hard to explain. But when Jackson comes out he doesn't stop for photos, so I'm like walking over to his limo, he is standing there like getting his guest into the limo. I just wanted a photo, security dude tried to help me get a photo, but Jackson was just like sorry no photos, so I was like ok. I wasn't going to rush him and like jump all up in his grill for a photo. We hear about where the after party is at, so I go back and ask another security person, who I get to talk to for a bit and make friends if it's at the place, he says yes we are right
We go eat, walk 20 blocks to the place, to find out we missed Jackson by 30 minutes. It wasn't meant to be to meet him, so it is, what it is. I guess I kind of met him.
We head back to the hotel, I finish packing. I fly home the next day.
The other moment when I was fearless, was when I decided to talk to a person, who I was afraid to talk to. Turns out it's not as scary as I thought it would be, and it helped me let go of that, which I needed to.
Wow this is the longest post ever!! I will proof read later. I am SO blessed, God is so good to me. Yes he is. I thank him for this experience, I feel like a new person, that I am stronger than I think and that I don't need to be afraid.
God Bless! xx - Jynnea
Wow, what a whirlwind it has been I don't even know where to start. Well first I can say that I am thankful for the experience I had and for even getting the chance to do something like this. So I thank God for everything he has blessed me with.
So first off, I got invited to audition for the ABC talent showcase. I didn't make it through, but the fact that I even made it through two rounds is awesome to me. I'm proud. The fact that I was even picked out of thousands of people to come audition is a huge accomplishment to me. I'm not disappointed that I didn't make it, it wasn't meant for me or my time. But I got to live in New York for 2ish weeks and that was so fun. Up until the end when drama came in and ruined it, but everything happens for a reason.
One thing I learned while I was in New York, was how to be fearless. I can say for the first time in my life I was fearless. It was amazing, and now I know what that feels like, and I feel like I can do anything. I will talk about the things I was fearless about later on, but for now I guess I will talk about the highlights of my stay.
The first highlight was getting my palm read. Now, I know this is against what I believe. It's hard to explain, without going into a long thing about what I believe about people who see the future I guess.
I shouldn't of done it, and I keep talking to God about it, because I'm not sure how to take it. The lady she was interesting. My friend and I got our palms done, my friend went first, and the lady kind of freaked her out because she was dead right on things. I can't remember everything she said to me so, I'll break it down such as this:
- She said, she sees a long healthy life for me.
- I was put here to give directions, not take them.
- I have a problem with authority. ( trueeee!)
- She sees success for me ( she kept repeating this; she even went as far to say she sees fame )
- That I need to move to NY, that is where I will get my break.
- That I'm a strong young women
- About letting go of a situation with these people I like, and starting fresh. Just letting go of them and starting anew. ( Which I did)
- She said in my Aura she saw rainbows and sunshine.
- That I am pure and clean ( truth, I am pure )
- Marriage and 4 kids
- To put my career before love, until I get success.
I got the cards too, but she wouldn't tell me, she just said I won't even tell you what this says because I need to let go of those people, and just start new. Start fresh, you will be a success.
Almost everything she told me, I kind of all ready felt if that makes sense. I guess her words just got me thinking and kind of made me want to kick things into gear. I continue to talk to God about this, because I just don't know how to feel about it.
So later on we went to see Taylor Lautner on the Today Show, mind you I haven't slept but 2 hours at this point. I was getting restless, like WHERE IS TAYLOR!?! I was like I will never come to the Today Show to see anyone again, not even the Jonas Brothers ( which cracks me up, you'll see in a sec ) I just wanted to sleep. Haha. But he was nice and signed as much as he could. Of course I was a fail at life, and forgot to zoom my camera back out, so my photo with him didn't turn out. Lol, it's him and like my hair. Haha but it's ok, I'll meet him again, no big.
Next, my friend won tickets to see a pre-screening of Eclipse. Which was Auhmazing, best one so far! Like Kristen, I actually felt Bella, it seemed so organic the whole movie. So after the movie the drama starts. I won't talk about it, cause it was so ridic. Basically we got kicked out of the place we were staying, that my friend was PAYING rent to live at. Anyways, that's another story.
So, I lost my blood sugar monitor. A friend was kind enough to take me to CVS at like 2 in morning to get another one. lol We had also stopped at the new Forever 21 in Times Square to buy some clean clothes. Mine were scary cause the shirt was shorter than I thought, but I worked it out. Anyways, so we find ourselves with no place to go, and we decided to just go to the Today Show to see Kristen, LOL right. After I said I wouldn't never go back,even for the Jonas Brothers. Clearly, Kristen was more important for some reason. lol It's ok though cause she was nice.
So we are chillin on the sidewalk and talking to some TwiMoms or something like that. Made a sign for Kstew, actually two. lol I'm thinking, I can't believe I am laying out here on the pavement for Kristen Stewart, awake for 48+ hours, no shower, looking skank nasty.
So we go in, get a good spot, and Al's like Kristen is running late because she stopped to get a latte or some ish. I'm thinking, are you serious right now? A Latte? Why didn't her asstistant have one ready for her?! Hellllo? So anyways she gets there, she looks tired as I don't even know. You can here me in my video say, she has bags under her eyes, I meant the bags you get from having little sleep, not because she's pale. lol
So anyways, Kristen and I had some awkward eye contact moment. I'm still not really sure of what happened, after it happened, I was just like huh? Lol, I was seriously that tired, so she comes around to sign stuff and this group of people hog her for like 5 hours, ok not that long but it seemed like it. When she got to us, they were like sorry no pictures guys, and I was like Fml.
So she signs my friends photo or something, and she gets to me. I don't even remember I'm pretty sure I just looked at her and she was like Hey what's up, and I was like err Hi, um yeah I don't have anything for you to sign soooo yeah. It was weird. So she moves to the next person, so then my friend gave me a photo to have her sign, and I run to the other side where she is at and like have my arm floating out with a magazine for her to sign, she looks confused, and looks at me like I hate you. Ok not really, but like huh, and then signs it and she on her way. We try to go to Regis and Kelly to get a photo, but paps are douchelords, and her security person wouldn't let her, which is understandable.
So then we go get the rest of out stuff from the place we are staying at, and move to a hotel. Crash out. Get up the next day to get the final stuff, and it takes longer than we thought, so we miss the Last Airbender red carpet. We meet up with some other friends, and want to get something to eat, but if we leave we will miss the people leaving.
So I stay and the security dude starts talking to me, and we get each others names and make friends. This is one of those moments where I feel I was fearless, it's hard to explain. But when Jackson comes out he doesn't stop for photos, so I'm like walking over to his limo, he is standing there like getting his guest into the limo. I just wanted a photo, security dude tried to help me get a photo, but Jackson was just like sorry no photos, so I was like ok. I wasn't going to rush him and like jump all up in his grill for a photo. We hear about where the after party is at, so I go back and ask another security person, who I get to talk to for a bit and make friends if it's at the place, he says yes we are right
We go eat, walk 20 blocks to the place, to find out we missed Jackson by 30 minutes. It wasn't meant to be to meet him, so it is, what it is. I guess I kind of met him.
We head back to the hotel, I finish packing. I fly home the next day.
The other moment when I was fearless, was when I decided to talk to a person, who I was afraid to talk to. Turns out it's not as scary as I thought it would be, and it helped me let go of that, which I needed to.
Wow this is the longest post ever!! I will proof read later. I am SO blessed, God is so good to me. Yes he is. I thank him for this experience, I feel like a new person, that I am stronger than I think and that I don't need to be afraid.
God Bless! xx - Jynnea
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
I know what I'm saying now!
Wow, so I read some old blogs from like 2007, I wish I still had the ones from like 04..but those are long gone. Anywho, I'm totally listening to some Kate Nash right now --forgot how much I lurvee her-- so I've come up with me summer list!
So...it's not to have one! I just need to live, and stop trying to force things to happen. Lean on God, he will lead me. I'm just going to enjoy while I can, the world is going down hill. I need to read my bible and learn my word and have my armour ready. Jesus is coming ya'll, he is.
So that's it, to live life. Enjoy it. Cherise it. Be grateful.
I'm gonna dance this summer! I miss it sooo much! And learn guitar! Yesss.
ttys! xoxox. God Bless - Jynnea
So...it's not to have one! I just need to live, and stop trying to force things to happen. Lean on God, he will lead me. I'm just going to enjoy while I can, the world is going down hill. I need to read my bible and learn my word and have my armour ready. Jesus is coming ya'll, he is.
So that's it, to live life. Enjoy it. Cherise it. Be grateful.
I'm gonna dance this summer! I miss it sooo much! And learn guitar! Yesss.
ttys! xoxox. God Bless - Jynnea
So uh remember how that one time...
...I was supposed to break up with junk and fast food? Yeaaah about that...erm. It didn't happen.
It's been forever since I've written a blog. So I thought I would update. There is SO much that I want to say, I just don't know how to really say it right now. I thought about doing a "summer" list, but last time I did that, I pretty much did nothing that was on that list.
So I'm not sure, I'll have to update you soon...
It's been forever since I've written a blog. So I thought I would update. There is SO much that I want to say, I just don't know how to really say it right now. I thought about doing a "summer" list, but last time I did that, I pretty much did nothing that was on that list.
So I'm not sure, I'll have to update you soon...
Monday, April 5, 2010
Oops..
Well I kind of ate at a fast food place :( But I ate something "healthy" I was at work and hadn't packed anything so I had to eat something, and sometimes I still do the sit down restaurants. But I'm getting better. That's all I wanted to say. I'm kind of excited, pumped, blessed, awesome, thankful! Wow everything. Like I can't believe everything, God is great. I am staying positive about this. Soo yeah. Talk to you soon! :) xoxo
- Jynnea
- Jynnea
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