Then sings my soul.

You know, I've been thinking? I used to be scared or careful of what I would say around people because I wanted to please them. I thought I had to censor myself whenever it came to speaking of God. Why? Why should I have to censor myself because others don't believe? I'm fine with everyone believing in what they want. I just so happen to believe in God with all of my heart and soul, sometimes it hurts in a good way, because that love is so strong.

It's so strong that I want to tell the whole world of how much joy and happiness I have now. I'm not going to force anyone to believe in God or make them read the bible. We all have a choice. If someone has a question, I'll be more than happy to help. But I am no longer going to stop myself, because I love God and that's that. Thanks to Christa, its like all of my blinders are being lifted so I can see the truth and the light. I love it. I feel like a new person, a right person. Complete change doesn't happen over night, but I can tell a difference in myself from two weeks ago and today.

I have been craving God, wanting to listen to music that praises him and read my bible. I am finally allowing God to wrap me up in his love, and it's quite beautiful. I have learned that I can turn a negative situation and turn it into a positive. I can't wait to start hearing God, I know I do now, but listening, and seeing him. I'm just so happy and excited writing this is a pretty pathetic attempt at explaining. I can't tell you how much my heart is overflowing with joy right now. I know I sound crazy, but oh well crazy it is. It makes me happy, God makes me happy.

Christa Black is so beautiful and inspirational. I am going to print all of her blogs one day so I can go back and read them when I need hope. Her blog is

Christablack.blogspot.com

That's all for now. God Bless. - Jynnea

Make you feel my love.

I love this song! It's so pretty, Adele has an amazing soulful beautiful voice. But that's not the reason I decided to write. I'm writing because I miss the Jonas Brothers. Yes, I know it's pretty sad. But seeing them leave kind of hurts, it's like these 3 people who have helped me hold on, and know in a little bit longer I'll be fine are there for a moment and then gone like the wind, because well...they are. I don't like that, what I would give to be friends with them. Now I sound pathetic, but it's really how I feel. So, I don't care. One day I will meet them, one day! Maybe we'll be friends or we will do a project together or maybe my dreams will come true! I'm using a lot of " ! " I guess it's because I'm just trying to get the point across and I'm just so happy, thankful and blessed to see them in concert. " Always Be My Baby" just came on, I love this song too. *sigh* Anyway, Nick's speech during ALBL maybe me cry in Lexington, but it really really hit home in Columbus, I didn't cry, but his words were extra special that night. That night on August 26th 2009, I made a promise to Nick Jonas, of course he didn't hear me, but he told us to promise him, and I did. That we would never let whatever it is slow us down. Since then I have never felt such hope in myself and my dreams. I truly feel like this time I got the words, they impacted me. I'm not going to let this get me down because I can live my dreams no matter what condition I have. I hope to look back on these old post a year from now, and be in a different and better place, maybe even making a name for myself. Who knows what the future holds except for God. I have faith in him and trust him, to lead me to where he wants me to go. I'm so excited, and I'm filled with so much joy. So thank you God for letting me see my boys. They are one of the best things in my life. xoxo - Jynnea.

Spanish or French?

I always forget about this blog, but it's nice to update and come back and read what I wrote and how I was feeling in that past. So, my job is going good so far, I like it. I'm thinking about applying for a second job in like September-ish. But we'll see how August and everything goes. I'm about to go to NY again for a seminar with two pretty great agents, I'm excited! I haven't been to NY in forever! So I'm thinking about "college" hmm, I'm not sure if or when I want to go. But I am thinking about doing a 1 year program, maybe. I wasn't sure which language I wanted to study, so I decided that I might as well learn Spanish, it's not my favorite language ( I would rather learn French or Italian first ) But since people think I'm Hispanic...which I'm not. lol I could pass it off for acting and knowing and speaking Spanish will broaden my resume, and help me to communicate with the world. After I learn Spanish, I am going to learn Arabic, then French, then Italian, then German, and hopefully Greek. That's a lot of languages to learn, and hopefully I'll get to test my knowledge of what I've learnt in the actual country! Since I plan to go to either Europe or Egypt/ Jordan/ Israel next summer, the languages will come in handy. If I choose Egypt, then Arabic will def come in handy. That's all for now, I'm really tired, work in the AM.

xx love - Jynnea

Yay!

I got a job! weeeee! Lol, I'm excited. I just wanted to say that, really. I know I said I would go to school in the fall, but I'm still not sure, I think I may do an online program so I will have enough time for two jobs and my dance classes, etc. Welp, that's all for now!

Peaceee loveeee!

- Jynnea.

Well Well Well

Hmm, I am in a writing mood right now I guess. Not that anyone cares, but eh what can you do. There are somethings I would like to say. But as I've learnt you should probably stay mum on subjects that will just cause problems. I am not one to usually bit my tongue, of course if it were something I believed in, I would stand up and fight. But there really isn't a point in this case. Maybe I'll just fade away from the situation. I am probably one of the most indecisive, stuck in the middle, can't make a choice person ever. I am always torn between wrong and right, what I want and what I need, fantasy and reality. It's hard for me to find a common ground. But I'm working on it. We all change, we all grow. I am not the same person I was 5 years ago. I hope to change and grow for the better. I have learnt so much in the past year it's crazy. I've learnt a lot about myself. Like not to care so much, and to stop trying to please everyone, that everyone will not like me, and that's how it is. I need to just be me and worry about taking care of myself and loved ones. Not what the world thinks of me. You can take me or leave me. I have decided that in the fall I am going to go to school to get my associates degree in Administrative Assistant Technology - Medical. So I can have a degree to fall back on. I have two plans. One for normal life and the other for acting life. So if something does happen to come up, I would leave school to go act or what not. Then after that move to New York or California. At lest armed with something. Hopefully more training and experience. I am going to apply for my passport in about 2 weeks, need to get a photo done, but I need to get my hair done first! lol. Oh yeah the point of this blog was to list the 3 things on my summer list to try to do first! Hmm I forget what was on it. But um, haha.

1. Get License!
2.Get certified in CPR.
3. Not sure really.

That's all for now!

Much Love.

Jynnea xx

Why am I always awake at 3am?

I swear, I am always awake in the middle of the night! I need to get back on a sleep schedule. My brain has been doing a little over-time lately. So much to do, and think about it's no wonder I have a hard time sleeping. I have been thinking about moving to LA. I had thought maybe January '10. But I'm thinking maybe like June or July 2010, is a better aiming point. I have learnt so much lately. Like everything happens for a reason, and you can not rush into things, and things do not happen in an instant ( most of the time ) I am learning to be patient with things. To think things through, but not over think things, keep working and I will get to where I want to be. It may take 3 months or a year or so. But I will get there. I have to keep my eye on the prize. Of course, I would love to start acting in movies right away, but seriously what are the chances of that happening? 0.1 chances of that. So all I can do it keep working on my craft. There will always be movies and there will always be auditions. It just sucks sometimes because you see a movie that you would love to be in, but you know that it most likely won't happen. But I keep that hope that one day someone will open my submission. One day....so anyway I have been thinking. What are somethings I want to do this summer?! I have composed a slight list.

1. Finally get diploma.
2. Learn Guitar
3. Learn Italian
4. Learn how to do Fouettes - well.
5. Read the Bible more often.
6. Meet someone famous & the Jonas Brothers, ok and Demi Lovato.
7. Get an acting job.
8. Get certified in CPR.
9. Get an Agent? :]
10. Go to the beach or some place tropical.
11. Run the mile in 10 minutes.
12. Get drivers license!
13. Plan Europe 2010.
14.Get a Blackberry or iPhone or Plam.
15. Improve myself, and be a better person and friend.
16. Go to the Jersey shore.
17. Get second job for Turks and Caicos.
18. Compose a song.
19. Laptop!
20. Have an awesome summer!

Oh yeah and Frank Foks? I think that's how you spell his last name. lol He is amazing, awesome, and so so cute! Thanks to Del for getting me into him.

ttyl! God Bless!

Peaceeee.

- Jynnea.

Friday the 13th.

That was the last date that I posted! Wow! It has been forever! So I thought I would take a moment to update. I having being doing my homework as an actor, and realized that I have so much to learn! I thought I knew a lot about the business, boy was I wrong! Oh yeah, the New Moon audition, yeah that didn't work out. I sent my submission in on like the 5th day so it probably didn't even get looked at since, over 20,000 people sent something in! But that's ok. There are 2 more movies! So I'm not worried, I'm just a baby in the business anyway. I would like to get some film credits to put on my resume, indie movies are what I'm looking at right now. So that way when I send my submissions in I can have .1% more of a chance! Haha. I was debating on if I should send in something for The Last Song, and I figured why not. There is also another project, that I might send something in for, but I'm still debating. I'm thinking yes. You will probably be lost when I start to talk about this, but how awesome would it be if I got a callback and showed up at the audition, I bet the reaction would be priceless! There are a couple of other projects I am looking at too. I want to do my local theatre, but I don't think I will be able to because it's time to start getting serious about my dancing again. I haven't danced in forever! I would like to audition for Camp Rock 2, so I need to step up those skills as well. There is just so much to do and think about! Oh but the main thing I need to do is...get a job! LOL. Well, that's all for now! You can follow me on twitter! Twitter.com/Jynnea

Ok! Byee! :]