Then sings my soul.

You know, I've been thinking? I used to be scared or careful of what I would say around people because I wanted to please them. I thought I had to censor myself whenever it came to speaking of God. Why? Why should I have to censor myself because others don't believe? I'm fine with everyone believing in what they want. I just so happen to believe in God with all of my heart and soul, sometimes it hurts in a good way, because that love is so strong.

It's so strong that I want to tell the whole world of how much joy and happiness I have now. I'm not going to force anyone to believe in God or make them read the bible. We all have a choice. If someone has a question, I'll be more than happy to help. But I am no longer going to stop myself, because I love God and that's that. Thanks to Christa, its like all of my blinders are being lifted so I can see the truth and the light. I love it. I feel like a new person, a right person. Complete change doesn't happen over night, but I can tell a difference in myself from two weeks ago and today.

I have been craving God, wanting to listen to music that praises him and read my bible. I am finally allowing God to wrap me up in his love, and it's quite beautiful. I have learned that I can turn a negative situation and turn it into a positive. I can't wait to start hearing God, I know I do now, but listening, and seeing him. I'm just so happy and excited writing this is a pretty pathetic attempt at explaining. I can't tell you how much my heart is overflowing with joy right now. I know I sound crazy, but oh well crazy it is. It makes me happy, God makes me happy.

Christa Black is so beautiful and inspirational. I am going to print all of her blogs one day so I can go back and read them when I need hope. Her blog is

Christablack.blogspot.com

That's all for now. God Bless. - Jynnea

Make you feel my love.

I love this song! It's so pretty, Adele has an amazing soulful beautiful voice. But that's not the reason I decided to write. I'm writing because I miss the Jonas Brothers. Yes, I know it's pretty sad. But seeing them leave kind of hurts, it's like these 3 people who have helped me hold on, and know in a little bit longer I'll be fine are there for a moment and then gone like the wind, because well...they are. I don't like that, what I would give to be friends with them. Now I sound pathetic, but it's really how I feel. So, I don't care. One day I will meet them, one day! Maybe we'll be friends or we will do a project together or maybe my dreams will come true! I'm using a lot of " ! " I guess it's because I'm just trying to get the point across and I'm just so happy, thankful and blessed to see them in concert. " Always Be My Baby" just came on, I love this song too. *sigh* Anyway, Nick's speech during ALBL maybe me cry in Lexington, but it really really hit home in Columbus, I didn't cry, but his words were extra special that night. That night on August 26th 2009, I made a promise to Nick Jonas, of course he didn't hear me, but he told us to promise him, and I did. That we would never let whatever it is slow us down. Since then I have never felt such hope in myself and my dreams. I truly feel like this time I got the words, they impacted me. I'm not going to let this get me down because I can live my dreams no matter what condition I have. I hope to look back on these old post a year from now, and be in a different and better place, maybe even making a name for myself. Who knows what the future holds except for God. I have faith in him and trust him, to lead me to where he wants me to go. I'm so excited, and I'm filled with so much joy. So thank you God for letting me see my boys. They are one of the best things in my life. xoxo - Jynnea.