Oops..

Well I kind of ate at a fast food place :( But I ate something "healthy" I was at work and hadn't packed anything so I had to eat something, and sometimes I still do the sit down restaurants. But I'm getting better. That's all I wanted to say. I'm kind of excited, pumped, blessed, awesome, thankful! Wow everything. Like I can't believe everything, God is great. I am staying positive about this. Soo yeah. Talk to you soon! :) xoxo

- Jynnea

Breaking Up is the hardest thing to do...

LOL!! OK well I've decided that I'm breaking up with fast food, even sit down restaurants for the month of April, after that for sure fast food. Even if it is a "healthy option" I need to get my diabetes under control again, so I need to cut out the fast food and sweets and junk...lol

So basically I'm going to prepare my meals so I know what I'm eating and how much of it I am eating. I will be ok and since it's April 1st ( no this is not an April fools joke ) it's a good time to start :) I have crest white stripes in my mouth and they are foaming and getting on my nerves... lol I need to spit the stuff out but I'm afraid the strips will come out. lol The best whitening stuff I've ever used is iWhite, stuff is awesome!

Anyways, I guess that's all for now. I'm getting over a sickness, Thank God. I've been praying for him to heal me, I got somethings coming up. So I need to get healthy, and the sugar better. I will update on how the break is going in a few days...

So ttyl! God is good xoxo. - Jynnea

Who cares?

Today, something happened and it was on my mind for a while and popped back up again. I was offended by something that had happened in the work place, because I felt like I had been slighted. I was upset for like 15 minutes and then I did they whole " They'll see when I'm famous, they'll wish they hadn't said that to me" number...then it hit me.

Little Joyce Meyer's voice popped up in my head, haha. I heard her say, don't be offended. Then I remembered one time she talked about being offended and moving on from being offended. So I was like she's right, I don't need to be offended. The only person I answer to is God ( and my parents ) If I would have stayed offended by what was done, I would just grow sour feelings for that person, and probably become a little witchy towards the subject of them in a way. It bothered me because the person didn't know the whole story, if they had I would have ( maybe ) but not really, been ok with their actions.

So I just thought I would write this and say try not to stay offended for too long and really think about if it's worth your time to be offended and upset by this person, because most likely they are just going to go on about there day and not be phased by it. So I just let this roll off my back.

Another thing I've been thinking about is a story that was in Self magazine, basically asking why aren't you living the life you want? What is holding you back from it, and how can you make it happen. I've been thinking about that a lot, there are quite a few things I need to finish up before I could really go onto living that life.

I will say this though, God has opened my eyes up to a whole new world. I feel like he is preparing me for the journey, and I am so very thankful that he opened my eyes to what I needed to know before really embarking in this.

Also NEEDTOBREATHE = LOVE! Seriously lovelovelove them! & the fact that they are a Christian band and give an uplifting, positive message is beautiful. I highly recommend them.

That's all for now! Be blessed :) God is great! xo. - Jynnea

Shout it out, I can't hold back no more,I let it out.

Ok, right now I am a bit mixed with my emotions. I'm happy, but I'm frustrated, I can't really blame anyone else though. I kind of set myself up for failure, but that's what happens when you wear your heart on your sleeve. I never thought I did, but now that I think about it I do, for the most part...

I don't know I was so convinced! IT just bothers me, and this is a true problem. If you knew the whole problem you would understand why this is really something so dumb, and pathetic...uhhh I don't know...but I'm not giving up because something deep inside is telling me not to, it's just a setback to throw me off. But I have to be strong and move forward not just with this, but everything in life. I must say I am full of hope, so I'm not going to think what if, but if, or it probably won't. I am just going to keep going and doing what I can, trusting God. I know he has more for me than I can even think of...

That's all I feel like saying right now! ttyl! God Bless. xoxo. Going to watch some Joyce Meyer! lovelovelove her! :)

Much Love. - Jynnea.

But you don't know what you've got till it's gone.

2010 is the year of NO FEAR. I plan on it being that way. Not just because Nick said it, but it's true, no fear is the best thing. New year, new beginnings. I don't want to be afraid anymore, so long I have dreamt about so many things, and yes the unknown is scary but, so is life, and I don't want to live in fear.

So Nashville was so great, we didn't really get to walk around. It was so cold! Nick was amazing, sadly I didn't get to meet him, the way things worked out I think I know why. It's hard to explain, but to sum it up. I talked to God about it, and well let's just say I have somethings to work on. So anyway we get there, I forgot that Nashville is a different time zone! So I gained an hour and got to take my shower and wash my hair! haha which I really wanted to wash my hair. We got to the Ryman at about 6:40ish and went in I really like it there, how the seats are the original pews. Pretty much every seat is a good seat in there, the balcony is the best if your not within the first few rows on the floor. Diane Burch was really good, amazing soulful voice. When Nick came out it was crazy! The screams were intense! For some reason I don't scream anymore when -- in this case Nick -- they came out, I just stand up, smile and clap. I cheer for them and stuff during the show. But I feel comfortable whenever I see them that I don't have to go crazy. Nick did such a great job, he was a natural! He owned the stage, his music is real. He is so talented. I forgot about Kevin and Joe the whole time pretty much and even forgot about 'Jonas Brothers' Nick is going places, God blessed him for sure with so much talent! I am so glad he and his brothers get to share it with us. So anyway after the concert I guess Nick left straight for D.C. -- I didn't know that so we walked to his hotel and walked around lost for like 35 mins in the cold. Finally we went to the Courtyard Marriott and asked for help, we were pretty close and I think we had already walked past the hotel once before! haha when we got there some other Team Jonas ppl were there waiting, I had just missed Mr.Jonas! Dang, haha. So we waited till 2am and I gave up cause we were so tired! Went back to our hotel ate some noodles and then we were gone. haha One of the best concerts ever. I had so much fun, I was enjoying myself. Christa Black was there, Jordan Pruitt, and of course Maya!

It was a great way to start the New Year! God is so good! So so good to me. I am blessed, my family is blessed and we are grateful! I really hope Jonas Brothers go on tour this summer! How fun would it be to go to a bunch of shows?! Um crazy fun right! Ha, but we'll see. I dont' know the future, I trust God with whatever has wants me to do. 2010 is the year of No Fear! No dream is to big or small.

God Bless! xoxox -- Jynnea.

Goodbye 09, Bonjour 2010.

Well first of I have to say on this New Years Eve, it has been an amazing year! A very blessed year. A lot of ups and downs yes, but a lot of learning and growing as well. I just know that through everything God helps me through and he always will. I am so grateful for everything he does and blesses me and my family with. I've been thinking a lot and 2010 just seems like something different and not the same as the others. I feel a lot of hope and have a lot of dreams. I've been thinking about how to improve myself for 2010. What can I do to further myself in 2010. I don't want to be in the same place that I am today, I want to learn more, grow more, and progress. So I was thinking I tend to over dream sometimes, and I have to reel myself back into reality. One thing I realised I don't know the future only God knows mine, and two I can plan, but I never really know. I hope to do many things this in the new year. I may not live in New York or Los Angeles but that doesn't mean I can't train and try my best here and prepare here for when I do move. So I would like to focus more on my talents and stuff this year start dancing again, take guitar lessons, find a good acting class, and take more vocal lessons. Training is never ending. Wow I can't believe another year has gone by, it's just like wow. God is good, truly. I know no matter what I can always lean on him and trust in him and I just know. So yeah I am going to pray tonight going into the new year! I pray for you and yours to be blessed! Much Love. xoxox

-- Jynnea

Gives Me Hope.

Wow, it's been a while. So lets start off with what's been going on with me. Basically just working. I wanted to talk about a few things today. 1) Well as some of you know I've had some family issues for a long time. It's sad when you can't trust family, and really I was never even close to them so it's kind of hard to miss that I never had or knew ya know? Anyway, we had a big blow up, and it was just crazyness. You can't tell someone something if they don't want to hear it, to them they will also be right. I pray for them all the time that they will see the truth, but it's hard to see the truth when your mind and thoughts are clouded with recreational things. I can't say that I'm all upset, actually I have felt "done" with the whole situation for a long time, it's sad when things end this way. I trust that God will help us through this problem so I have decided that I'm not going to waste anymore time on thinking about it.

Next, Gives Me Hope is such a beautiful website, it makes me a bit teary-eyed it's great to see how much love people actually have. If only people weren't afraid to reach out and touch someone and help them, we can help each other no matter what religion we are or what we believe, we can still love each other.

Lastly, you know I have to talk about God in my blogs and preach a little bit for you. lol So this morning, I was having a little talk / pray with God and I was talking about my favorite bible verses, and I had this like revelation. I mean it was just like WOAH. I was saying how Proverbs 3: 5 -6 is pretty much my favorite verse. You know what it is? " Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not on your own understanding ; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" See why this is such a big deal to me, is because so many times when speaking with God I've been like"wah wah wah Lord, I just don't understand!" Ha, well a light bulb finally went off in my head! Um HELLO!?! is anyone else getting this, I can't believe it took me sooo long. I was trying to lean on my own understandings...I wasn't trusting in the Lord. I was too busy trying to to figure it out for myself and understand myself. I know that whatever it is God will let me know. I do trust God, and I know he will make my paths straight. I don't have to waste time anymore trying to rack my brain figuring out why something happened. I knew I had to write a blog about this. So yeah that's my huge break through. Basically all I wanted to say.

I am so excited for Nicholas's solo project! He's a great artist. God has blessed him with amazing talent and a beautiful soul.

That's all for now, ttyl! God Bless. xoxo.

- Jynnea