Well Well Well

Hmm, I am in a writing mood right now I guess. Not that anyone cares, but eh what can you do. There are somethings I would like to say. But as I've learnt you should probably stay mum on subjects that will just cause problems. I am not one to usually bit my tongue, of course if it were something I believed in, I would stand up and fight. But there really isn't a point in this case. Maybe I'll just fade away from the situation. I am probably one of the most indecisive, stuck in the middle, can't make a choice person ever. I am always torn between wrong and right, what I want and what I need, fantasy and reality. It's hard for me to find a common ground. But I'm working on it. We all change, we all grow. I am not the same person I was 5 years ago. I hope to change and grow for the better. I have learnt so much in the past year it's crazy. I've learnt a lot about myself. Like not to care so much, and to stop trying to please everyone, that everyone will not like me, and that's how it is. I need to just be me and worry about taking care of myself and loved ones. Not what the world thinks of me. You can take me or leave me. I have decided that in the fall I am going to go to school to get my associates degree in Administrative Assistant Technology - Medical. So I can have a degree to fall back on. I have two plans. One for normal life and the other for acting life. So if something does happen to come up, I would leave school to go act or what not. Then after that move to New York or California. At lest armed with something. Hopefully more training and experience. I am going to apply for my passport in about 2 weeks, need to get a photo done, but I need to get my hair done first! lol. Oh yeah the point of this blog was to list the 3 things on my summer list to try to do first! Hmm I forget what was on it. But um, haha.

1. Get License!
2.Get certified in CPR.
3. Not sure really.

That's all for now!

Much Love.

Jynnea xx

Why am I always awake at 3am?

I swear, I am always awake in the middle of the night! I need to get back on a sleep schedule. My brain has been doing a little over-time lately. So much to do, and think about it's no wonder I have a hard time sleeping. I have been thinking about moving to LA. I had thought maybe January '10. But I'm thinking maybe like June or July 2010, is a better aiming point. I have learnt so much lately. Like everything happens for a reason, and you can not rush into things, and things do not happen in an instant ( most of the time ) I am learning to be patient with things. To think things through, but not over think things, keep working and I will get to where I want to be. It may take 3 months or a year or so. But I will get there. I have to keep my eye on the prize. Of course, I would love to start acting in movies right away, but seriously what are the chances of that happening? 0.1 chances of that. So all I can do it keep working on my craft. There will always be movies and there will always be auditions. It just sucks sometimes because you see a movie that you would love to be in, but you know that it most likely won't happen. But I keep that hope that one day someone will open my submission. One day....so anyway I have been thinking. What are somethings I want to do this summer?! I have composed a slight list.

1. Finally get diploma.
2. Learn Guitar
3. Learn Italian
4. Learn how to do Fouettes - well.
5. Read the Bible more often.
6. Meet someone famous & the Jonas Brothers, ok and Demi Lovato.
7. Get an acting job.
8. Get certified in CPR.
9. Get an Agent? :]
10. Go to the beach or some place tropical.
11. Run the mile in 10 minutes.
12. Get drivers license!
13. Plan Europe 2010.
14.Get a Blackberry or iPhone or Plam.
15. Improve myself, and be a better person and friend.
16. Go to the Jersey shore.
17. Get second job for Turks and Caicos.
18. Compose a song.
19. Laptop!
20. Have an awesome summer!

Oh yeah and Frank Foks? I think that's how you spell his last name. lol He is amazing, awesome, and so so cute! Thanks to Del for getting me into him.

ttyl! God Bless!

Peaceeee.

- Jynnea.